Tuesday, November 30, 2004
♥10:19 PM
called Hanlong last nite, decided not to call him de.. but dun know y i still call him up.. we chatted for an hour and his phone went dead.. we toking about b'day and i was scolding him tat he dun even know when was my birthday.. he told me he know but when he told me when it was i was so angry!! he gt the wrg date!! we agree to mit up tis noon.. i sms him ask me whether are we still mitting as he didn't sms me.. he told me he was wit his dad and would call me later.. told me to mit him at 2.30 but i was late.. who knows, he was even later den me! he sms me at around 2.40 telling me tat he juz leave hm only.. pengz~ i ended up walking around like a fool at J8 alone.. he made me wait for close to an hour.. i was hungry, cold, thirsty and angry.. always make me wait for him..
when he came, i was angry yet i can still smile.. well well at least he didn't forget his promises.. i told him i wanted to eat chocolate and he immediately brings me to 7-11.. he knew i was angry..
went coffee bean to study and i knew for sure he would check on my IC for my birth date.. but i wasn't dumb either, i kept my IC after i took my purse out frm his bag.. when i return, he was asking me where was the thing.. i was laughing so loudly.. i told him he's nt smart enff.. i hv kept the thing he wanted to see.. lol~ and he told me, '你比我想象中还贱..' lol~ i was really laughing away..
suddenly, he told me he broke off wit his GF last nite.. i got a big shock and i told him, 'dun joke lah.. 不好笑咯..' he suddenly gt serious and said he's serious.. but i still thought he was joking wit me, i can even say, 'it's nt April nw lor..' i was asking him wat happened.. he said tat he quarrel wit his gf and they hv not tok for days.. den he asked his GF whether she still like him nt.. he told me tat his GF say tat she was rather stress when being wit him cause she's being controlled by him.. told him not to cry.. i was even joking wit him that i told him i dun know hw to handle tis type of situation.. but he seems rather fine to me.. when i ask him y he dun look really sad, he suddenly mumble, '一年多了咧.. of cuz will abit sad leh..' but when i was chatting wit him last nite, he really sound fine lor.. he was asking me ,'没有人要我了，你要不要我?' of cuz i didnt ans him..
shd i be happy or sad??
i dun even know.. confused..
Monday, November 29, 2004
♥10:14 PM
Yicheng called me last nite from thailand i think.. i was quite surprise as its was an overseas call.. knew it's gonna be him as he's the only one i know tat went overseas.. he was telling me tat he miss me ans ask if i miss him nt -_-" hw can i ever ans tat! he told me he got into some small accident on the bike and ask me hw's my exam.. i told him nt very well.. den he was telling me, 'aiya nvm lah.. u no need study so much de.. marry me can le..' i went 'HUH???' is he crazy or wat! marry him?? no way.. i know he's gd to me, but no feeling for him.. somemore he told me tat he bought me a bracelet.. OMG really dun wish tat he will treat me so gd.. really dun like it..
Hanlong called me last nite oso.. it was early but he was about to sleep and i wasn't in a gd mood to tok to him as i was still pondering over those matters.. i was doin my mask and so inconvience to tok to him oso.. he thought tat i was unhappy but i told him i would call him back later.. when i called him back, he was actually sleeping.. he told me he was waiting for my call so we chat for awhile.. as usual, he would ask me if i miss him nt.. den suddendly, i said , 'anyway.. u dun wan me anymore le mah..' but who knows, he actually replied me by saying , 'who says i dun wan u?? i wan u de lor..' he was asking me to go to his hse tml.. dun think i will go ba.. no mood.. somemore ask me muz dabao ck rice for him.. pengz~ dun wanna go his hse.. scare.. scare he'll 吃掉我.. lol~
Sunday, November 28, 2004
♥10:12 PM
couldn't get into sleep last nite.. tok to liang min last nite, she told me tat Hanlong was rather good looking and look like a nice guy.. but she was quite surprise when she heard tat he's actually attached.. she was giving me advises.. and i dun know y i actually couldnt sleep.. was pondering over wat she and my dear had told me.. was thinking over alot of things.. really alot.. so confused tat i went northpoint and shop around myself.. needed to let go of my own feelings.. felt really helpless..
jess was telling me tat she's happy to know tat i've went into a relationship but she really cannot expect the guy to be someone like tat.. maybe its really time i hv to get things settled.. need to prepare myself for the worst.. i really dun wan my very 1st relationship to end up in a miserable way..
Saturday, November 27, 2004
♥10:11 PM
he called me very late last nite.. close to 2am, i was sleeping and so he ask me go back sleep oso lor.. i was too tired to tok to him oso.. as usual, went out.. but sian lah.. every week go same place.. s'pore is real boring sia.. sian..
Thursday, November 25, 2004
♥10:33 PM
went out today.. saw quite a couple of friends.. first, saw kokwei and was rather surprise as Hanlong actually didn't walk away and instead, he turn back and was standing beside me.. went library to study den go watch movie.. when i was in the library, he said tat jac look quite chio.. den ask me y never intro her to kaiming.. den told him tat she's attached le.. den surprisingly he said, "gt bf can break off.. gt husband can divorce.. gt baby can abort.." pengz~
lol~ watch Incredibles.. it was nice.. when i took out my money, he say no need as he said i paid for the movie last time.. thought he forgotten.. saw naeem once again, he didn't avoid mitting my friend.. bought alot of foods into the theater..i was so freaking hungry n cold! den after movie, saw jess!!!! my goodness.. she hit me! but when she questioned me bout who is him i really hv gt no ans~ quite paiseh.. but luckily he didn't walk out of the shop.. gt hm at 9 plus.. think tis is the only time we go out together till so late ba..
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
♥9:03 PM
he called me rather late last nite.. when i was about to fall asleep, he was asking me y i didn't call him and was it cuz i dun miss him.. how i know he's at hm or outside.. continued disscussing bout those guys n gals topic n difference.. i told him tat i eaten the caramel sundae and he said he's goin to try.. told him not to as it was far too sweet and guys dun like sweet stuffs.. but he said tat he's goin to eat it cuz i like it.. he told me tat he decided to change kisses to hug because of me.. wahaha..
while toking, he's telling me tat he love me and says tat he wanted to hug me.. my goodness~ the way he said its like real serious.. can feel tat he really wanted to hug me.. hehe~ tis is the 2nd time i heard him telling me that he love me.. i was asking him wat if one day chris undress in front of him and seduce him.. will he... and he was so serious tat he shouted on the fone.. he said, "i will immediately ask her to dress up and if she dun, i will slap her on the face and walk out.. n i'm fucking serious on tis! dun ever ask me things tat hv gt to do wit tat bitch!" i gt a big shock~ he was so worked up.. lol~
was asking him bout his family and his dream.. he really hv gt one evil step-mum in which i always used to think tat it will only happen in drama~ weiyou ring me up n i told him.. but i didn't pick up his call.. he say i was attitude.. den i ask him back, 'so u wan me to chat wit him izzit?' den he immediatly went 'NO'.. lol~
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
♥1:14 PM
surprise, he sms me last nite asking wat i was doin.. something he hv never done before.. chatted on the fone last nite and he sound so hyper.. he's in a rather gd mood.. we were disscussing on the topic hug n kisses.. n he said he will choose kisses over hug.. i was asking him y and he said tat it was only den will guys think tat it is true luv.. pengz~ nonsense.. he was telling me tat it is impossible for him to kiss someone tat he dun love.. he was really cute last nite.. lol~ he's making some silly comment over certain topic which makes me laugh like mad.. he's making himself so silly.. so silly tat he was actually scolding himself tat he dun even know wat he was toking bout.. lol~
Sunday, November 21, 2004
♥12:22 PM
chatted wit him y.day morning as he didn't call me last nite.. i didn't call him up oso.. tired, and he oso for sure went out wit his friends de.. true enff, he went out wit his friends.. i was telling him tat my HP is rather quiet tis few days as no one is looking for me.. i told him tat weiyuan and wei you call me to chat den he ask me why weiyuan always call me.. lol~ is he concern?
went out for shopping.. bought lots of stuff.. yun was telling me tat shopping makes one feel gd den ask me hw i was feeling.. i told her tat 'i can't feel any happiness nw cuz my heart is bleeding..' wahaha.. weixiong came to pick us up together wit yun's pri sch friend.. her friends was a funny one.. lol~ very entertaining..
den Hanlong called me.. he heard guys voice den ask me is it tat i went out wit guys.. lol~ he ask me to call him when i reach hm.. i sms him when i was in the car telling him tat the driver dun know drive till where.. he gt panic and call me.. he was scolding vulgar words.. lol~ called him when i reach hm but he had fallen asleep.. told him to go back to sleep den he suddendly he sound awake.. he was tricking me..
the nite before, he told me tat he got into a fight wit 3 guys at the BB court.. i gt a big shock! so stun tat i went silent.. he kept asking me to speak and asked y i'm nt toking.. i was so worried as he said that his face got punched.. den suddenly he laugh and say tat he was lying..-_-" he said he juz wanted to test what's my reaction was like towards him.. kao~ i was so angry!! so angry tat i scolded him.. made me worried for nothing! but he apologise oso.. haha.. tat day he pass me a candy tat he gotten frm the temple when he went praying.. he said tat he pray for me too.. ~touch~ hehe~ he called me tis morning quite early as we agreed tat whoever wakes up 1st would give each other a call.. as he says tat i'm a pig.. always sleeping.. lol~
Friday, November 19, 2004
♥6:57 PM
went back to sch today~ to retake my FIA lab test.. finally, the thing work! hehe~ but is oso ask teacher to help me check line by line lah.. wahaha.. Hanlong called me tis morning when i was still in train.. we agree to go sch at 8 but i was late.. woke up late and took my own sweet time to go sch.. haha.. but who knows, he was late too.. he sounded so diff frm last nite.. last nite when he called me, he was having attitude problem! very fierce very buay song.. but tis morning diff.. sms him saying tat i will wait for him at the locker as i wan my keys.. i was sitting there like an idoit.. quite paiseh..
finally, he took the shirt back.. but he oso never say anything bout it.. sad~ like no big deal like tat.. WTH~ he finished his lab test faster den me and ended up sat beside me, wait for me to finish mine.. luckily teacher never scold him cuz teacher dun let ppl tok to me.. went canteen for meals.. saw his friend edward! pengz~ edward was wit a grp of bikers friends and when i went down, tat grp of friends were staring at me! somemore Hanlong shouted to edward which draw attention.. and the canteen is so weird today.. i was the only gal inside the canteen! he went to CCK today.. dun know find his GF or mum.. but dun care oso lah.. we were playing in the train n i keep giving him attitude faces lol.. making lots of noise i muz admit.. haha..
Thursday, November 18, 2004
♥8:32 PM
watched Taxi wit Hanlong today.. went causeway point for that.. but oso nothing much.. he seems like he's afraid of seeing his friends.. pengz~ had a hard time when goin out.. sounded him out by telling him tat i wan tat S&K skirt.. lol~ dun think i will be able to get it.. we were seated in the lover's seat.. was shock when the gal ask us, i'll give ur lover's seat.. i was like "huh??" den Hanlong immediately say ok to tat gal.. i juz keep quiet lah.. he bought the lovers combo set cause he knew tat i wanna eat popcorn.. we sat too close le den my shirt ended up having his perfume's smell.. pengz~
he kissed me when we were in the lift.. i was rather surprise.. he tired kissing me again in the train but i siam.. lol~ ask him accompany me go sun plaza wait for friend.. he did oso lah.. hehe~ think tat we're not as close as before le.. dun know why i had tis strange feeling again.. juz like wat it was happening a few weeks back.. i'm quite scare~ saw Lan today n mit up wit her.. its been so long since i last saw her.. had a nice chat too~
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
♥9:58 PM
been struggling wit sch wrk recently.. can't seem to do well in Dover.. obviously i'm slacking.. today's test oso dun know hw to do.. write name do MCQ only.. jialat.. hopefully can score well in the real exam.. Hanlong called me when i was waiting for the bus tis noon.. my grps of friends were all around so had to walk away to ans the call.. but ended up being tease by wei yuan..
he call off the movie date today.. saying tat he's goin over to his mum's place.. but i think he need to go mit his GF ba.. wat for lie.. ask him to take his shirt in my locker.. but still cannot find the rite timing to take.. he ask me to pass him my keys and he will go take.. but when he call me at noon, i ask him and he said he didn't manage to take it as kaiming was around.. pengz~ i was asking him y he didn't go his mum's place.. den he said tat cuz there was no one at hm to look after his bro.. dun know which word he says is true..
went to mit my dear at suntec today.. her interview was a sucess.. hehe~ went sakae eat oso.. hahaha.. no need pay~ wahaha.. but my dear very cute lor.. keep asking me to eat cuz no need to pay! lol~ as for making him buy me something, i will try to sound him out..
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
♥9:32 PM
went to sch today.. for test.. but ended up will need to take retest on fri!! WTF.. only 1 motor working.. sob sob.. but rather surprise tat weiyuan actually said, 'y u dun know? even i know leh.. like tat jialat leh.. lai lai, i teach u..' surprise sia.. he suddenly treat me very good like tat.. wahaha..
saw Hanlong when i was about to cross the road to sch tis morning.. he stood beside me den purposely dun tok.. gt a shock cause he was wearing uniform which i'm rather nt use to seeing it.. think tis is only the 2nd time i happened to see him in the morning..
accompany him to do his EZ link card and went his hse to study.. but we both ended up falling asleep.. lol~ i didn't sleep well last nite and he was too tired.. but stil manage to study lah.. teach him some oso.. had fun, did sparing n weight lifting.. like having taekwondo lesson.. lol~ agreed to go movie tml.. but oso dun know how..~
Sunday, November 14, 2004
♥3:31 PM
called him last nite at around 1am.. to my surprise, he call me 亲爱的 infront of his friends.. he was outside so we never tok much oso.. den he call me tis morning.. he was sleepy cuz he reach hm at 5am den 9 went for BB again.. he was telling me tat he's goin over to his mum's place den ask me wanna go nt.. i say anything den he say cannot go.. cuz he dun know how to intro me to his mum.. den said his mum think tat he's a gd boi.. wtf! ask me liao den tell me tis nonsense! so piss off now! i was asking him does he really hv the shutter's VCD and he said no.. he was juz lying! say muz go cinema watch it.. pengz~ he say tat his friends were saying tat its nice.. but frm the comment i heard frm radio, it's only 3/5..
Friday, November 12, 2004
♥7:57 PM
he didn't call last nite.. i was waiting and waiting, ended up falling asleep.. was hoping tat he would call me in the morning thinking tat he might not go to sch.. when out wit my dear to Causeway point tis noon.. accompany her go buy her thing.. den Hanlong called me.. i asked him did he went to sch today and he was so gan jiong and said he got go, ask me dun accuse him of nt goin to sch all the time.. pengz~ ask him only and he's so ji dong.. he was asking me whether i'm gonna bring him out tonite anot.. i said tat i wanna go star glazing and he said see his friend got car not den can go Changi there to see star.. den say tml go out oso.. but think he juz say only lah.. he where gt time to entertain me..
i said wanna go see those christmas lighting but he said he y.day nite saw some le.. so i said forget it lor.. den he say nvm can go again but still need to wait and see if his friend got car not.. i scolded him saying, 'oh.. so u like to go out wit many ppl lah?' den he said 'got car mah' pengz~ and i ask him wat is his leg for?? he said tat he reach hm at around 4plus am last nite and he asked me y i didn't call him last nite and scolded me for not calling him.. saying tat when he dun hv a HP, i couldn't find him so never call nvm.. now he gt HP, i oso dun bother to call him.. say i attitude.. pengz~ hw can i call him? wat if i call at the wrong timing?
he asked me go accompany him tis noon.. but oso till 5 as he wan go play BB at 5.. ask me shun bian buy chicken rice for him oso.. kao~ but i never go lah.. it was already 2+ le.. go oso awhile nia.. bo liao.. 3+ he call ask me whether i goin to his place nt.. if nt he will go sleep.. n as usual, he give me a muack on the phone before he hang up.. hehe~
Thursday, November 11, 2004
♥7:18 PM
quite bored today.. wanted to mit up wit kevin they all.. but oso sian.. cuz my Dear nt goin.. somemore go out wit them oso sure spent lots of money without fail.. always have to end up paying more.. Hanlong called me last nite.. but my ears were so block tat i couldn't hear it ring!!! kao! angry wit myself.. i was trying to keep myself awake while waiting for him to call but i ended up fall asleep.. msg him back at around 1+am but i was damn tired so i dun bother to call back oso.. he ended up calling me back.. but the same thing happen.. i couldn't hear it ring!!! so he msg me back.. kinda sweet when i saw his sms.. he said something sweet to me lah.. hehe~ hopefully he will call me tonite ba~ (^0^)
my dear quarrel wit him again.. abit problematic.. but hope things turn out well for them~ gd luck~
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
♥6:50 PM
boring sch today.. msg Hanlong in the morning and scolded him for not turning up as he said tat he wanted to bring the present back hm today.. he told me tat 2 alarm also can't wake him up.. he's too tired.. suppose to be toking wit Ray at class but we ended up writing in paper instead.. Class was too quiet, no choice but to write.. wrote alot.. Ray was consoling me once again.. Ray kept asking me to ask Hanlong wat his ans is.. but i told him tat maybe the state we are in right now isn't a bad thing afterall..
When i was in Ray's car, we tok about tis thing again.. den suddendly, Hanlong call me.. i was smiling away.. when i hang up the phone, Ray was giggling.. i scolded him den he stop.. but i ended up being the one laughing.. Ray broke into laughter once again.. wahaha.. Ray was teasing me and he said, 'dun you used to hate Hanlong and says about his bad point all the time?' was rather silly as to think of it..
Met him at J8 tis morning.. accompany him to eat lunch.. but i waited for him for 1/2 an hr.. he was late.. but at least he still bother to msg me 'sorry' when he came, he juz sat beside me quietly.. i didn't tok but he ask me y i look as if i juz cried and was is cuz i waited too long..
we went to eat but i skip mine.. he kept on nagging n nagging at me asking me to eat.. went for movie.. 'Shark Tales' but i didn't pay much.. he was behaving like a little boi.. keep calling me Jie jie.. pengz~ at least, he's smart tis time round.. he didn't buy soft drink tis time.. he said tat he knows i dun drink soft drink.. (touched =p) he hugged me while watching the movie.. and i know tat he tried to kiss me on serveral attempt but he failed.. lol~ i wanted to kiss him on his cheek but i juz couldn't find the chance to.. didn't really like tat movie.. wanted to watch shutters but it's too late.. we agreed to go for a meal at cafe cartel next time.. but dun know when will it be..
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
♥8:51 PM
morning, met Ray at BB and he drove me to sch.. i was feeling tired and fall asleep in his car.. but suddenly, he stepped on the E-brake.. he was nice enff as to place his arm infront of me wit fear tat i may dash forward.. he's oso nice enff to cover me wit his jacket.. indeed it's my gd bro~ went to sch hoping to take the Lab test.. but didn't manage to take it.. there wasn't enff tables!! wasted my time going to sch.. called Hanlong at about 9 plus asking him y he never come and take the test.. he was still sleeping but he sounded awake.. when i was about to hang up the phone, he called me, "亲爱的.. 我爱你.." i was smiling away =) but i was in the toilet and after coming out from the toilet, i kept smiling to myself.. he's actually telling me the word i wish to hear frm him..
he came to sch but can't take the test oso.. no time.. looks like we hv to take it next week le.. went to Holland V for lunch, saw him wit his new HP tis morning.. but i did not ask him anything.. neither did i ask him for his no. when we were at Burger king, he said, "亲爱的.. y u so quiet? y u never ask me my HP no.? i give u k.. u muz call me hor.." thought tat he wont give me his no. but dun think i will call him oso.. scare his GF find out.. while i was trying to get my HP out frm his bag, he said tat i anyhw touch touch den touch his 'didi' pengz~ when we were at the study rm, he fell asleep den i pat him on his back making him sleep.. when it was my turn to sleep, he did the same thing to me oso..
went out wit him to Jurong Point.. it's was nice.. went toys 'R' us.. haha.. he suddenly hug me from behind! gotten a shock.. but things got better as he was holding my hand throughout the whole shopping time.. i was so afraid tat he would let go of his hand once we were are out from the shop.. but he didn't.. instead, he was very sweet and nice to me.. he even kissed me on my cheek, making me felt so loved.. gosh~ i was holding him so tightly.. while in the train, we were both standing and for the 1st time, i tried hugging someone in the train.. i was hugging him so tightly with fear tat i may lose him.. the way he hug me oso made me felt very loved <3
Monday, November 08, 2004
♥9:09 PM
Hanlong called me on Sat nite, it's been quite sometime since i last chat wit him on the phone for so long.. more than 2hr.. was rather surprised when he said, "我要找我的亲爱的.." he was asking me whether i miss him not.. we were toking about getting our driving licence.. i was saying tat i would be taking sch lessons but he said tat he wanted to take private as he wants to pass faster and so tat he can save more money for fuel and drive me around.. dun know he meant wat he say not.. he was playing music from Initial D's soundtrack for me.. and even d/l songs tat i would like to listen.. was feeling sick n tired tat nite.. upon hearing me cough, he said tat he muz dote on me even more and kept asking me to drink water and said tat he would wait for me to return.. he also played me his DJ's remix, those remix tat he had done in his dad's pub.. rather impress wit his talent.. lol~ but i almost doze off when those techno song kept playing..
he was asking me whether i know monday is wat day and asked whether i got any '表示' suddenly, he ask me, "wan listen to me sing mah?" and i agree immediately.. bet he regreted wat he said.. wahaha.. after a very long struggle, he finally open his 'golden mouth'.. he sang huang pin yuan's "最爱你的人是我..." i was smiling away.. =) his voice wasn't too bad..
he called me last nite oso, but it was rather late and i've actually slept but i said tat i'm still awake.. edward was in his rm den.. but at the same time, Hanlong was sweet toking me.. hnot afraid of letting edward know.. later den i realise tat edward was actually wearing a headphone and playing comp game.. pengz~
i was telling him tat i would pass him his b'day present and he kept asking me wat i bought then we started toking nonsense when he say tat i gave him condom izzit.. lol~ i joke wit him telling him tat after buying his present, i had to be more '节俭' tis month.. den i warn him '你最好对我好一点..' he promise me tat he will treat me real gd.. hope he wont lie ba..
wanted to pass him the present tis noon.. but when he saw the present he said, "chey" i gt so piss off!! wtf he actually dun appreciate it.. i heard it and i said, "fine.. dun take it.. i'll give it to someone else.. 嫌弃我的礼物!" i was in such bad mood.. although he did snatch my keys and attempted to open my locker for the gift but he later says he tat he will take it from me tml.. think he's mitting his gf, it's better nt to bring it along.. followed Ray to chinatown wit his friend Gary today.. his friend was pretty gd looking.. but didn't tok wit him lah.. Ray was nice enff to drive me back to my hm.. really thanks man~ =)
Saturday, November 06, 2004
♥10:38 PM
y.day was a terrible day for me.. was feeling sick~! hate tat~ so sick tat i barely hv the voice to tok.. y.day at sch, something happened.. i was walking to the canteen and a guy call me & said 'Hi' to me.. i dun even know who the hell he was.. but i was in a total lost.. while i was buying food, Hanlong came over and i was asking him was tat his friend but he said no..
went out wit Hanlong to SSDC.. in the train, we didn't tok much, so much like strangers.. so diff from before.. i asked him to tok but he was saying things like, "i'm waiting for u to start a topic.." pengz~ but things got better after we reach JE mrt.. i started toking nonsense so as not to be so awkward.. we later moved to a 2 seater seat and finally, things got better.. he started telling me about his family n himself like wat he used to share wit me.. i was oso changing to be the 'cherlin' he used to know before we were tat 'close' together.. suddenly, he shouted at me, "wat u think u r doin?" i was stepping on his shoe.. and i acted as if i was crying.. lol~ he got panicky! wahaha.. he almost mention about his gf to me when he said "我也是每次和我... (gf)... 朋友这样讲话的嘛..' i oso acted as if nothing.. dun bother..
we were having ice-cream on the way to ssdc.. den he said, '你吃的很开心hor.." and while waiting for the briefing, we were toking and i was asking, "how how" den he say "你 kiss 我，我就跟你讲“ den he held my hand and he was sort of hugging me.. he kissed me on my cheek and i got surprised.. in the briefing rm, i was feeling cold and he was holding my hand making me warm.. i was so afraid tat the lady would ask me, "ur bf ah?" but luckily never..
i was teasing him when he say tat he went geylang wit his friends every week.. was telling him to "take care" of his own body.. lol~ he really BTH the way i suan him.. he was telling me tat he muz bring me there one day to see.. but he oso know tat i gt curfew lah.. dun know tok bout wat thing den he suddenly sounded serious.. he said to me, "我几时骗过你??" really dun know wat to do.. cannot resist it when he hug me.. felt so loved & pampered by him.. but at the same time, i know tat he's not mine.. mixed feeling.. but i really enjoy goin out wit him.. he always make me feels like a little gal infront of him..
today, stayed hm all day n sleep.. super tired n weak.. body like jelly, no energy to move..
Thursday, November 04, 2004
♥11:42 PM
lesson was super boring today.. was sitting alone cuz badly need to concentrate on lesson.. scare would retain.. Hanlong came toking to me, rather surprised.. he was telling me about tml's thing.. but i juz say 'okok'.. went to play pool tis noon with the guys and it was fun.. they were teaching me hw to play it correctly but luckily ray was patient enff to teach me.. i kept on making the same old mistake.. although i didn't win but it was fun! the cue almost hit ray's eyes.. lol~
y.day nite, yicheng called me asking me did i went back to BB.. he said tat i've change and become prettier.. but wat surprised me more was tat suddendly he said, "我要正式追你" i got a shock!! he's forever telling me such things but y.day nite really gave me a shock.. he was telling me tat his mum quite like my look as she happened to see my pic before.. pengz~ he think too much le ba.. i know he's gd but so far no feeling for him lah.. nothing much to say le.. hope tml wont be a boring day for me..
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
♥7:14 PM
boring day today.. had lab test tis morning, almost dun know hw to do.. always hv prob wit the connection things! but luckily faidzal help me by smsing me.. lol~ still manage to complete the connection myself lor.. had a bumpy ride to dover today which almost cause me to hv a serious headache.. idoit lorry~ tml ray's driving so smoother ride.. wahaha.. went back to BB tis noon.. Joyce was complementing me on my look and say tat i've slim down.. it's so gd to go back to BB.. 2years of gd & bad memories there~ it's was raining so heavily tis noon.. so long never rain till like tat liao.. so heavy tat can hardly see the front view.. wanted to hv a chat wit my dear tis noon.. but something crop up wit her so never tok much oso.. well well, dear ah.. dun cry anymore le.. not worth it.. it will only make ur eyes swollen and won't solve any problems in the end.. time to let go..
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
♥6:26 PM
had a boring day today.. having my FIA presentation next week and i know nothing about tis god damn subj! dun wanna retain, but no mood to learnt oso.. skip lunch today and notice something.. my friends are all so concern for me, so touched.. all were persuading me to eat as my face was turning pale~ they were treating me like a small kid trying to coax me to eat.. haha.. (^.^) ray was nice, he accompanied me go 7-11 and ask me am i ok.. knowing tat i'm having a soar throat, they went to buy me 枇杷膏 candy =) And finally, someone call me Little Princess in sch.. thanks to ray~ my feeling got better.. had a tok wit Naeem tis noon its been so long since i last had a chat wit him.. still a nice guy~
during EP today, we were all teasing Hanlong tat he 'beat china' (abandon frendz 4 gf) y.day.. and i actually joined in to tease him as well! i was even laughing away wit them.. he was looking at me wit strange glances like, "do u know wat u r saying?" and looking at me wit a guilty look.. but Ray was surprised tat i actually join in the conversation.. end up asking me, 'Are u ok?' won't admit tat i'm still acting strong infront of them.. but i need time to get over it..
well, to my Dear, looks like we are both out of luv at the same time.. but dun worry, i'm sure someone tat really dote and lub u is on the way.. give it some time ba.. and to naeem, he really look tat bad meh.. i really got such poor taste ah.. whahaha..
Monday, November 01, 2004
♥8:58 PM
heard something which i fear.. someone said, 'hey~ ur gf is waiting for u at the bus-stop..' my expression changed immediately.. so obvious tat ray was asking me, "y?" ray oso heard tat Hanlong's gf is waiting for him outside.. so he did not mention much too.. i was forcing myself to smile and act as if nothing is happening all the way to the bus-stop.. upon reaching the bus stop, i pray tat i dun get to see his gf.. thankfully, she's not there.. in the bus, he was asking me to catch a movie wit him, i agreed.. but i dun think he would even remember wat he say!
upon reaching dover MRT, happened to see a gal and when i look up, my instinct was telling me tat, 'i'm Hanlong's gf' and ray was telling me, 'ur 2 o'clock' and immediately i knew tat my instinct was rite! she's really his gf! got a shock but still had to smile and act normal and say gd bye to him.. scan my ezlink, walk to the platform immediately.. tears were on my eyes, so much tat a blink would cause the tears to drop.. so i told ray, 'tok to me now!!! distract my attention from wat i juz saw!!' promise not to cry for him.. so no matter how difficult it is, i cannot cry!
i'm really bothered by wat i saw tis evening..
i cannot help stop thinking about it..
