Hi all..

Introducing my little niece~ izzit she cute? who do ur think she looks like? she's so adorable! Sis gave birth to tis little princess today afternoon.. 29/05/2008.. at 1.04pm, weighing @ 2.6kg~ the best part, she has lots of hair! lol..

Sis went for a natural birth process.. it was hard on her.. cuz it HURTS! after receiving the sms from jie fu tat the baby is born, everyone was so happy~ n something juz come across my mind.. i felt tat my sis is really brave.. i suddendly felt tat mother r really a very great person in life.. all of a sudden, i really pei fu her courage..

left work early to mit mum n dad @ bishan b4 goin to hospital.. upon reaching, saw sis lying down watching tv.. at least she dun look too bad.. shortly after, the nurse pushed the little princess in.. OMG! she's so small n tiny.. i really wonder how a baby can be in a person's tummy! lol..

little princess was sleeping.. yawningz.. making some sound.. she's so adorable.. no one dare to carry her.. she's too fragile! lol.. even her own dad dun dare to carry her.. wahahaha..

Well, i shared the gd news to him 1st.. upon seeing little princess, how i wish he was by my side sharing tis happy moment wit me.. i send him a mms in the afternoon but i only gt his reply around 8pm.. somehow i felt tat he's not so keen to share tis happiness wit me cuz of his late reply..

if i say i'm not thinking of him, i'm lying! how can it be tat easy to let go? i tried not to think of him.. i really tried.. but sometimes, he really makes me felt like i'm banging my own head on the wall over and over again.. i dun know how to put in words..

Anyway, been watching tis 9pm drama on channel 8 recently.. Rhythm Of Life.. i juz luv the words tat they say.. cuz its all about relationship.. how to let go, how to love someone, wat to do.. all those quotes juz seems so rite for me.. it's give me the chance to think and try to let go better..

If u love someone, u would really wish them happiness.. but juz how many of us can really do it? love is selfish.. when u love someone, u would wan to own that someone by ur side 4 ever..

Sometimes when i look at sis, i would think bout tis to myself.. i really envy her.. she gt a great husband to love n dote on her.. able to get engaged at the age of 23.. getting married and become a mum at 26.. how great..

For me, broke up wit him when i turn 24! i juz felt tat i'm too old for anything.. i cannot afford the time to go into relationship, getting married n everything.. everything juz seems so unaffordable to me.. i dun hv anymore time for all tis nonsenses! i dun wan to get into anymore relationship! i really cannot afford to be hurt again.. it really isn't easy for me to get over all tis.. i really cannot trust anyone in my life anymore..

Moving on wit my life.. making a change, preparing for the new challenges tats coming my way..

• I promise i would never make u cry again..
• When i get rich one day, i wanna take u out on a holiday..
• When i turn 21, i hope we can go register our marriage..
• When we hv our family next time, i wanna bring our kids out every Sunday, it would be our family day.. we would go fishing, cycling hv dinner and stroll on the beach..
• When i wake up in the morning, i would wan u to make me my favourite waffle..
• I wan to make u a happy bride when we get married..
• I wan to hv kids.. cuz i luv children..
• If i ever forget about out past, pls remind me of the past..
• I dun give anyone flower.. not even my mother and teacher.. by giving u tis, it show how much i love u..
• I dun buy ring for any gfs cuz giving ring means something.. but we've got tis ring..
• You are the one gf tat i really can't afford to buy u alot of stuffs.. i know u kelian.. but i promise u a better life next time..

I did.. i reminded u of our past.. the happy and sad moment.. every single word tat u told me seems to be engraved on me..

From the 1st day we met, the 1st time u held my hand, the 1st time u hugged me, the 1st time we stroll at pasir ris park, looking at stars, the word tat u told me when we were together.. u told me u would take care of me forever.. it was so sweet and i really tot i hv found a nice guy to rely on for the rest of my life.. every single word tat u said touches my heart deeply..

I would always remember how u used to protect me and love me.. giving me all the best thing u could afford to..

Tis breakup is really making me devastated.. i seem to hv lost everything overnight.. i felt so blank, empty and lost.. i've never felt so lost before.. i'm so lost i dun know wat i'm doin everyday..

I know it's easier for u to forget me cuz you hv too much friends around you to keep u entertained and keep u occupied everyday.. u hv lots n lots of beautiful gals surrounding u everyday, u r spoilted for choices.. beautiful, sexy.. whichever u wan.. i'm juz too normal to be spotted.. i'm juz a passer by whom u might nt even notice now..

I know u are very happy everyday.. tis breakup dun seem to bother u at all.. i know i can't get u off my mind so quickly.. all the promises tat u promise me, i've no idea how much of it can u keep.. maybe none or maybe, u hv already broke all of it.. but it's doesn't matter anymore cuz promises never seem to be wit u..

The last word u told me when i cried in ur arm at ur hse, 'dun worry k.. anything happened you still got laogong to help you..' u r not helping me anymore, you just gave me the hardest fall.. but i felt so comforted when u told me tat.. i miss ur hug, u always make me feel very secured in ur hug.. u make me feel very safe when u r around..

I'm so used to taking care of u, so used to do everything for u.. i know u dun need me anymore.. i know u could jolly well take care of urself.. or maybe, someone else is already taking care of u.. hopefully she's the rite one for u.. i know someone else would take care of u better den i do.. i've never done enff for u.. i'm sorry~ i really wish you happiness from the bottom of my heart..

Tks for giving me a beautiful 3 years.. it's been so memorable to me and i swear, no one ever shower so much love on me ever.. Maybe like wat others always say, First love always hurts.. Yes~ it's hurting me very badly.. i only hope tat you won't forget about me so quickly..