Monday, December 27, 2004
♥9:46 PM
it's been a week since Ginger's operation.. she's doin rather fine.. seeing her stitches really makes my heart ache.. but nevertheless, she's still as active as ever!! tats wat makes us all worry.. she can't jump.. scare later her bones dislocate again.. but one thing glad was tat the stitches on her stomach is recovering real fast.. and nt obvious.. =)
its been quite sometimes since i last tok to Hanlong.. he's bz working, so bz tat he didn't even call me.. surprisingly, he called me last nite.. but it was juz some short conversation.. he reprimanded me saying that i never call him.. said i heartless and ask me why i never ask him why he didnt call me these few days.. he said tat he reaches home late and was tired so never call.. well, juz listen lor..
he ask me whether i'm goin anywhere for the coming countdown and i told him no.. and he ask me if i wan to join him and his dad for a party.. i went, 'huh?? wit ur dad???' he said tat it's something like a D&D but i dun think so.. i ask him how am i suppose to go back hm after tat and he told me tat his dad would be sending me home.. my goodness~ tat party muz purchase tix which is around $60 per person..
he said tat he will be paying for me but oso dun know lah..
to go, or not to go..
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
♥9:14 PM
x'mas eve tml le.. but no one seems to be dating me out.. sian.. as usual, not celebrating it.. as for Hanlong, he pass his exam.. unexpected.. but ever since he started working, we dun really contact one another.. even if he got to know new gals there oso nt my problem lah.. his freedom anyway..
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
♥9:51 PM
mit Hanlong y.day noon.. we were chatting on the fone intially.. den he was telling me tat he's starting work tml..(today) and ask me if i want to accompany him for lunch.. but it was already 4+.. so i ask him to come to causeway point instead since i wanted to get some x'mas gift and he later ask me to accompany him for his BB after tat.. i went 'HUH???' den he told me tat i'm gonna be going to TCC often, as in i would hv to go wit him next time when he goes there..
he was early since he took a cab to yishun..
he told me tat he's learning how to ride a bike thru his friend but he ended up gotten a scolding frm me.. dun like him doin tat.. if he really wan to learn, go sch and learn it the right way.. shop around for my gift and he gave me ideas of cuz.. den we went to TCC for bb.. OMG~ real paiseh.. saw one auntie there and she was asking who i was.. and he went 'classmate'.. we were both blushing away.. real paiseh.. den he saw his friends there and they were asking who i was.. went to change but ended up sitting one corner since i dun really know hw to play BB oso..
his friend was interesting.. one of them actually look and behave like justin.. so alike.. the way they tok is excatly the same.. but i went hm myself cuz i dun wanna go back late.. dad seems to be supecting me.. he told me to wait and go for dinner before goin back and he will send me hm.. but i insist on goin back 1st..
mit christina up today and we went shopping!!! it was GREAT!! very long never shop till so happy liao.. somemore she kena approach by steven lim for eyebrow plucking.. all i can say is tat, he did quite a nice job.. althought i dun like him.. chris was teaching me ways to handle guys.. the Do's n Don'ts.. lol~ it was really funny..
told Hanlong tat i'm goin out wit christina and he actually ask me 'u really goin out wit tat bitch?' alamak.. he really dun like her ah..
Friday, December 17, 2004
♥10:20 PM
went out wit Hanlong y.day.. suppose to go for my sec sch BBQ but i gave it a miss.. feel rather bad about it.. but dun care lah.. dun wish to see those bitches there also.. went for movie at J8.. FINALLY! got to watch shutters.. he was late, waited for half an hour.. after movie, we were walking around.. he saw his friend and he ask me to walk over.. i did but i was standing at one corner waiting for them to finish their conversation.. his friend was friendly enff to say bye to me.. so i did the same thing.. but he ended saying tat i was attitude.. ask me y i didn't walk over.. i also dun know y, juz dun feel like walking over.. i dun wanna know how he's goin to intro me to his friend..
den walk again, he use to avoid goin into the VCD shop as he mention to me before tat a gal tat used to like him is working there.. but surprisingly, he walked in.. i was waiting outside but he ask me in also.. pengz~ tat gal is goin to hate me.. lol~ but oso did a friendly smile to the gal lah..
went walk walk to town.. can say tat it was rather boring.. dun know where to go and wat to do.. went to the beach somewhere near esplande.. we were laying there.. but y.day's mit up really wasn't as nice as last time..
on our way back, he was telling me things like when a guy dun call a gal as often as he do, meaning abit cold towards the gal, he doesn't really mean it as it's like nt much things to say.. but tat doesn't mean tat he dun wan her le.. and i immediately link tis to him.. is he toking about himself.. den my dad kept on calling me.. makes me in a very bad mood.. go out oso no freedom and i was sulking.. almost cry but he tried to make me smile..
he called me at noon, asking me to accompany him for lunch.. but i've already taken mine so tried to excuse myself.. but he ended up asking me to take a cab over to his place and said he's goin to reimburse me the cab fee, so i went lor.. wahaha.. but dun really like goin to there as i fear seeing my dad there..he was mentioning about starting his own business.. he always wanted to be his own boss.. tried supporting his idea as i dun wanna 破坏 his dream.. he had a quarrel wit his bro.. so angry tat he hit and spoilt his own waredrobe.. he was real angry and he said tat his bro was lying to him.. told him he got 暴力倾向.. lol~ and he admitted tat he does hv a little.. pengz~
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
♥9:26 PM
Hanlong called me tis afternoon.. ask me accompany him go see doc den go lunch.. but i hv something on at noon.. so i could only mit him up for lunch.. it's was all a rush.. dun quite like it.. rushing here and there.. he was late and yet insist tat i was late saying tat i was late so he went to walk around.. pengz~ only accompany him for an hour.. ask him to treat me better~ i also dun know why suddenly tell him tat.. BUT, it's not getting into his brain! he accompany me to the place i need to go before he went home.. althought it's going to be a even longer journey for him.. thought he's only joking about accompanying me there.. but when i turn my head, he was walking behind me..
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
♥9:16 PM
tok to Hanlong last nite.. but it seems strange.. seems like nothing much to tok about.. wat went wrg again? confused le lah.. once again he was asking me how much do i love him.. i avoided answering this.. dun know why he suddendly ask tat again.. he mention that he wanted to learn bike and was asking me for permission.. say that he wanna buy bike but had to put my address as his dad doesn't let him learn bike.. but well, i also dun really like the idea of him learning anyway.. these few days seems super bored to me.. sian ~sigh~
Monday, December 13, 2004
♥9:52 PM
called Hanlong last nite but he didn't ans and he didn't call me back the whole nite.. makes me had sleepless nite, thinking if anything had happen.. it was till late afternoon today den did he call me back.. he had fallen sick.. he ask me to mit him up today to do something.. wanted to mit him up tml instead but he said he's nt free..
think he haven't wake up yet.. he was asking me, 'you wanna go ROM wit me?' gt a shock! ask him izzit his friend getting married? he told me no and said is to go wit me.. -_-"
i was late.. thought he's goin to be late so i went out late too.. but who knows, he wasn't late.. knew he hate to wait for ppl.. but i went to buy him some soar throat candy for him.. he dye his hair!!! OMG.. like ah-beng ah.. not very use to it.. went AMK, saw a couple of his friends but we were oso behaving like we were only friends so no big deal.. he was suppose to go back to bishan.. but he accompany me to YCK before he goes hm..
Sunday, December 12, 2004
♥11:47 PM
called him last nite when i was about to sleep.. juz call him for no reason.. ask him if he know who i was and he replied, '亲爱的.. 有没有想我?' and i was saying tat of cuz i miss him, if not i call him for wat! he was so delighted to heard tat.. pengz~ was toking alot of nonsense.. he ask me did i promise him anything but haven return him.. i know what i own him.. but i end up asking him back the same thing.. and to my surprise, he actually rememeber tat he's suppose to make me egg mayo sandwich.. surprise surprise.. thought he would forgotten clean about it.. he kept on forcing me to say wat i own him.. but i juz dun wanna say it..
he added his friends james into the call for a conference.. but i didn't say anything.. it was juz like a 2 person conversation.. but when james was added in, he said 'meiling ah? meiling 2? meiling 3? meiling 4?' -_-" i really dun know hw many more gals he have out there..
after james hang up, i oso never mention anything about his gf thing.. pretend dun know ba.. was saying tat i wanna watch ab-normal beauty but then he wanted to watch shutters.. he said will accompany me go watch mine den ask me go his hse watch shutter cuz he gt the VCD wit him.. he also ask me teach him FET.. and he mention tat he likes to see me wear skirt!! cuz he says my butts very 翘 -_-" his eyes really wander around my body!
we were chatting for 2 hrs and i kept making him laugh.. he was saying tat i muz dress up for our private dating.. he called me tis morning too.. was asking me whether wanna go watch shutters wit his friends.. but i told him last nite tat i dun wanna go as i dun know his friends.. end up he oso never go watch as we agreed to watch it together..
went out wit zheng jie and gang today.. Went ktv den marche for dinner.. 3 botaks there.. wahaha.. but they juz cannot stop toking about army life! guys will always be guys~ their topic is either woman, money or NS life.. haha..
Friday, December 10, 2004
♥10:37 PM
was toking to Hanlong on wed's nite and we were planning about goin out.. he suggested tat after movie, go over to his dad's pub to find him.. n i was like.. 'huh? ur dad's pub?? me??' den mit him up y.day but i was late.. and he told me tat if i'm goin to be late, i will own him a kiss.. pengz~ he was telling me, 'hey lady, u know u r late?' and i told him, 'aiya.. guys wait for gal no big deal de mah.. i always wait for u oso leh..' lol~
went to PS for movie.. once again, we didn't manage to watch Shutters.. sad.. so end up watch 'Christmas wit the kranz'.. something tat surprises me was tat he was holding my hand as we were walking.. tat's one thing he won't do whenever we go out normally.. we were really behaving like a couple the whole day..
after movie, he was asking me whether is it bored to go out wit him as we hv no plan where to go.. den tok about married guys goin out to look for prostitute.. i told him tat even if he gets married he will oso do the same? and he was assuring me tat, 'no lor.. married hv wife liao for wat go find those chicken?'
was discussing bout where to hv dinner and he suggested goin for sakae.. but i said go suntec eat and we went suntec.. surprisingly, he was telling me to hold his hand tight in case i kena kipnapped.. wahahaha.. he suggested having hotpot but i told him i dun wanna wash plates and he told me tat he's paying.. brought him to many places but we still can't decide wat to eat.. was telling him this, 'i very troublesome hor..' den he told me, 'no lah.. 还好啦 juz tat hungry till stomach gt wind only..' embarassed..
went fish & co. for dinner.. he's too hungry to tok anyway.. den somemore they forgotten about our order he was rather piss off as he's real hungry.. went to buy his bb short.. today's expenses was all paid by him.. he bought quite a lot of money.. we also went esplanade walk walk and he was telling me, 'dun know y, it seems like i'm only able to tok to you on such 'thing' i can't seem to tok bout tis topic to my other girlfriends..' we were sitting and resting and i quite like tat feeling.. sea breeze, stars glazing and hugging him <3
we also walk to boat quay and as usual, he tried kissing me but i siam again.. he was asking me why and ask me why am i so shy.. little things only i blush.. lol~ den he was forcing me to kiss.. lol~ of cuz it's only a joke.. he said, 'kao~ wan to hv ur first kiss ah.. is 10 times harder den having sex wit you i think..' wahahaha~ we both were bursting into laughter.. but it's really nice as we were hugging enjoying the breeze, real sweet.. finally, i ask the que.. asked him, 'ans me one simple que..' think he know wat i'm goin to ask and he told me, 'erm.. i dun wish to ans any ques at the moment..' so forget it lor.. maybe its only been a week after his breakoff and i'm asking tat..
he sent me hm and was around 11+.. thought he's not going into the lift.. but suddenly he walked in.. =) but he had to take a cab home.. think y.day was the only time by far tat i really enjoyed myself wit him around.. he really makes me felt so protected.. but after wat i was gonna ask him, rather afraid tat he's goin to avoid me..
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
♥9:37 PM
tok to Hanlong last nite, he was outside and he called me 'cherlin baby' @.@ as usual, he would ask me if i miss him or not.. try to avoid answering this.. so i told him, 'ur fone ring for wat?' lol~ he was stunned upon hearing.. quite late den we started chatting.. he was asking me whether i'm free today as he wanted to ask me out.. but i told him everytime i go out wit him i always ended up goin back early.. it was boring.. and he told me he thought tat i hv to go back early so he always let me go hm early.. pengz~ communication breakdown again..
so we agreed to mit tml for movie.. was telling him about the e-mail i send my friend and got scolded by my friend cause it's too scary.. wahaha.. as i was toking about it, i myself was thinking bout tat pic and was having goosebumps.. he told me not to be scare as he's around..
suddenly, he was asking me wat if he's goin to NS, will i send him off to Tekong.. i went, 'huh?' he was saying tat his parent would defintely bring me along tat day.. and i went, 'huh?' once again..
he also asked wat if he's being 'lock' up for 2 weeks, wat will i do.. he's asking things tat's sooooo far away.. dun know why he kept asking me things tat would like happen next time.. den we tok bout traveling.. was telling him tat air tix are so cheap nowadays and he said tat ask me to follow him aboard.. told him i've no money.. he said tat he would sponser me.. ask him bout his job that he's goin to work for and he assure me tat he will get thousand over for the job..
Monday, December 06, 2004
♥10:06 PM
met up wit kevin on sat.. was super duper bored.. so ask him la kopi wit me.. met him at northpoint starbucks.. as usual, he's late.. but nvm lah, i was too early.. tok for hours there.. i think it's the 1st time i really tok so much wit him.. we tok about lots of things.. he told me bout his army life, was rather interesting.. haha.. he treated me drink somemore.. had 2 cup of drink tat nite.. wahaha..
as usual, he insisted on sending me home but i wanted to go back myself.. can felt tat he care for me oso lah.. and on sunday, met up wit yun.. go walk walk lor.. but she had no idea wat happened to me as i told her not to ask..
surprisingly, Hanlong called me last nite.. he was asking me y i didn't call him letting him know if i wanna go his chalet or not.. i was telling him off as he was the one tat said tat he's suppose to confirm it wit me.. he said tat he's friend was saying tat if i were to go, i oso had to return hm by 11pm.. wah~ wat a surprise, his friends oso know tat i had to go back early.. and he was saying, 'wah.. 现在就 communication break down liao.. den 以后怎么办?' i told him off again.. i say, 'dun tell me about 以后.. i dun even know wat's goin to happened tml!'
he told me he found a job.. but i dun really bother oso.. i not spending his money anyway..
Saturday, December 04, 2004
♥10:28 PM
OMG!!! Why are things turing out tis way? to my surprise, zheng jie actually told me something rather surprising and from tat moment on, did i realise tat i'm being fooled.. WTF! i'm begining to hear 2 diff stories and of cuz, i would rather trust wat zj told me.. for sure i know tat Hanlong is lying! wanted to confront him.. so called him immediately but he never pick up the phone.. i'm glad he didn't ans the call.. if he were to ans, i would juz scream my head off at him! was still crying tat time.. so instead, called up ZJ.. he asked me not to confront Hanlong as it would get his friend into trouble.. but i was thinking, if i dun say it out, i'm asking for trouble myself!
after wat zj told me, i actually cool down and rethink.. he told me there's no point to confront him oso.. something gd was tat, while toking to zj he was making me laugh.. makes me forget wat i'm suppose to do and thanks to him, he really makes my mood better last nite.. =)
12+am, Hanlong called me.. i was thinking whether to call him back or not.. after a long consideration, i called him back.. but i was extremely attitude towards him.. i tried to hide my feeling but i really can't.. think things get so obvious tat he's asking me, 'why are u sounding so attitude tonite? nt ur usual self leh..' god~ hw can i be myself when i'm angry?? he ask me to smile for him and i force myself to.. think he oso felt somethings not rite.. den he ask me if i'm free today anot as he wanted to ask me out.. i can't wait to go out wit him as i felt maybe i can really tok face to face wit him and have things sorted out in a better way!
He was at his friends chalet when i called him last nite.. he was asking me whether wanna go accompany him and i told him straight tat i dun know his friends.. but he asked again, ask me wanna stay overnite or not as the chalet is till monday.. i was thinking maybe tats a gd time for me to hv a tok wit him as well.. but dun think i will go over.. dun wanna show my face in front of his friends..
somehow, he making me real scare to fall in luv wit someone else.. rather hurt by such things.. didn't know tat things will turn out tis way for the 1st time..
saw wat my dear wrote in her OD.. my goodness, i'm really touched by wat she say.. she's extremely protective againt me.. even more protective den anyone else.. well, it's his lose to hv treated me tis way.. i treated him so well yet he did such things to me.. he will regret de.. it's his 损失..
Friday, December 03, 2004
♥10:26 PM
Hanlong called me last nite and we chatted for awhile.. somehow hearing his voice makes me in a rather gd mood.. while chatting, we suddenly were discussing things.. he was telling me, 'if i were to hv it den u cannot leave me k..' i ended up replying him, '我还怕你离开我..' oso dun know y suddenly, we both were sounding so serious.. he was asking me wat if one day he change his attitude towards me and suddenly become cold towards me.. told him i will be upset for sure.. den ask him y ask tat.. he wanted to know hw i would react.. y everytime wan to know hw i will react.. i'm quite scare to hear tis type of ques.. told him tat i was hungry as i skip dinner.. he was asking me i always dun eat.. told him tat i wan to diet and he asked y.. so i joke n say tat cuz he 嫌弃 me.. den he was telling me no, he was juz joking wit me.. and said ,'我又没有嫌你.. pls eat k.. u r always a gd gal.. muz listen to me k..'
he sound rather sweet to me last nite and was telling me about james's gf.. he said tat she hv no temper, no attitude.. den i simply ask him to go and snatch tat gal frm james.. he was telling me no.. den told me tat he hv me can le.. but somehow, i think tat he still hv feeling for wenyar.. (his ex-gf) when i ask him y he always dun ask me y i always dun let him kiss me, he gt excited and ask me.. he ask was it cuz i'm tense up.. i told him no and told him the reason.. he was laughing away.. den he call me '傻猪..' lol~ and ask me to relax next time.. pengz~
zheng jie sms me just now.. ask me whether am i wit Hanlong.. got a big shock!! thought he know or saw something! somemore he dun reply me! kao! ended up he was juz asking me.. cuz he felt tat we were together le..
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
♥10:22 PM
mit up wit Hanlong tis morning at 9+ am so abit tired nw.. he was late, but i wasnt dumb neither.. i was still at hm when it was 9am.. lol~ although we suppose to mit at 9am at YCK.. went AMK eat den went Mcd study.. den went back to take test.. but somehow, i felt tat we were rather not close.. after the test, we agree to go for movie but i dun wanna go J8.. so i suggested PS, and we went.. wanted to watch Shutter but ended up watching SAW.. we went shopping around first as it was early and he gt so used to calling me Pig Pig! pengz~
i got angry wit him when he was joking.. he said, '你不要以为你大只就可以欺负我小只' damn it! i hate it when ppl say i big size lor.. somemore he himself is nt small size either.. although he meant it to be a joke, i gt real piss off tat i was giving him attitude behaviour at the lift lobby.. i even try to cry infront of him.. but he's rather scare when i was about to cry.. but tis big size thing really piss me off.. he apologised to me but i still scolded him for saying such things to me..
when we were about to enter the theater, the gal was doubting us.. she wanted to let us in but after looking at us, she requested us to show our IC's.. lol~ he was so piss off.. lol~ but i was rather happy lor.. at least she thinks tat i'm under 16.. wahaha.. but he was angry, kept complaining tat he dun look like over 16 meh.. lol~
as usual, we were quite close in the theater.. after the movie, we went to shop around again.. but, he's rather scare to see his friends.. he dun even dare to hold my hand..=( den we went to TIMES, read some books and one was particularly interesting.. it's toking bout Man & Woman.. real interesting.. toking bout the difference and wat guys r thinking n wat woman r thinking.. we were laughing n discussing bout it.. den we took one bk tat hv something to do sex.. cuz the previous guy was looking at it.. den we oso very kpo wanna see.. lol~ we were flipping the book, but at the same time, we scare tat ppl would wan to see wat we were looking at.. lol~
den i ask him to go korea since his dad is asking him to go.. but he doesn't wanna go alone and den he ask me along.. but i dun hv tat kind of $$ lah.. den he ask me go work den save money den can go during March holiday.. saw lawrence n andrew today at PS! omg! but he was more scare den me! after seeing lawrence, he hide behind the pillar and of cuz, i'm quite upset about it.. y muz he do tat? there's no need for him to hide! makes me felt quite hurt by his action.. somehow, felt tat we were closer when he had a GF.. but after he broke off wit her.. we seems to be strangers..
wat's happening??
