Emo little miie

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

♥10:01 PM

Yeah yeah yeah~ eunice gave me tis Hilly sling bag!!! it's nt a new one lah.. but she only took it out twice, it's as gd as new.. she's someone tat takes care of bag very well~ she told me tat she bought it for like $100+.. but it doesn't really suits her tat well n so she gave it to me.. she gave me 3 Naraya bag the other day..

i love bags!! i dun mind more.. think she hv quite alot of it lor.. wahaha~
Today, went out wit ah-giam to pack lunch.. den dun know at where, my skirt kena some stains tat looks like curry.. shit~ and i can't seems to wash it off at all!!!

The 1st thing tat comes to my mind was, ask ah-dee to send me hm after work.. lol~ when ah-dee was at the window, i ask him to send me hm.. he ask me y den i told him i stain my skirt.. lol.. i think i oso phrase it the wrg way den his eyes open very big and gave me a wah!! look.. lol..

But i immediately explain it's nt tat stain.. den he joked wit me telling me tis, we go dinner 1st den go hm k... den i laugh and say, ok lor.. den he ask me give him treat anf i laugh so badly!!! lol.. cuz he was very checky when he mention tat and he himself oso paiseh till he walked off.. wahaha~ think my manager oso laugh at him lor.. wahaha.. but i'm rather used to it liao.. cuz they always make fun of me at work..

When i was in the van wit ah-giam today, he suddendly mumble something like, 'u r the only bubbly gal in office lor, w/o you around here will be boring again..' i ask him y.. n he told me cuz so far, i'm the only gal in office tat always makes them laugh.. cuz i'm rather silly and blur during work at times n they will 'say' me in a funny way..

lol..

Wendy(andy's gf) came to office today cuz she always comes on wed.. den we were chatting so much.. den she told me she wanted to get me the Charles & Keith maroon color bag which she oso owned one for me as a gift~ i was shocked!!

I did mention to her last week tat her bag was very nice and i like tat color alot~ n so she wanted to get me one too~ haha.. but ytd when she went out wit eunice to orchard, she didn't manage to see the maroon color.. so she was rather dissappointed.. but i told her not to get me anything cuz really dun wan to make her po fei~

I gave a her hug before i leave office cuz she won't be joining us in our KTV session tis weekend.. sad.. dun know when i will c her again.. =(

But still, Ah-boon(manager) was given the green lite by his wife to go KTV wit us~ wahaha.. eunice told him tat u dun come so early.. juz come to pay money can liao.. hahaha.. so i suggested something again.. i shouted tis, 'after KTV we go dinner wan? steamboat!! Tian Tian steamboat..' to my surprise, they all agreed! lol..

For the 1st time no one rejected my suggestion.. hahaha~ they all really give me face lor.. thank them so much.. (^.^)

Oso, tis song hv been in my mind tis days.. so i juz tot of sharing tis lyrics for ur.. if free, maybe ur would like to hv tis song on ur comp or mp3 too~

Have You Ever? By: Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much

It makes you cry

Have you ever needed something so bad

You can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried the words

But they don't come out right

Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love

Been in love so bad

You'd do anything to make them understand

Have you ever had someone steal your heart away

You'd give anything to make them feel the same

Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart

But you don't know what to say

And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one

You've dreamed of all your life

You'd do anything to look in their eyes

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to

Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

Have you ever closed your eyes and

Dreamed that they were there

And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby

What do I gotta do to get in your heart

To make you understand how I need you next to me

Gotta get you in my world

'Coz baby I can't sleep

Yes yes, i did silly things again.. i sms him again.. tis time round i oso dun know wat i'm doin again! but on the day i sms him, it was cuz he came to my mind again and suddenly i misses him alot.. yes ALOT!! dun ask me y.. it's juz a kind of feeling tat comes to me.. tat kind of Missing is excatly the same kind of feeling towards him when he was being enlisted to NS last time.. haiz.. but it's all the past..

So, i sms him to tell him tat i misses him.. i'm straight forward i know.. maybe ur will tell me i shouldn't sms him.. but i juz can't!! i wan to let him know how i feel.. but soon after, there's no reply from him, and i msg him again.. tis time round, something cruel from me.. but it might be a relive for him.. but i dun know bout him..

It juz breaks my heart again.. =(

Last nite, he sms me, calling me xiao qi.. haiz.. am i???

The End ♥

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

♥11:54 PM

the b'day gal wit her waffle in hand

2 shots wit jac

Ok~ i juz return from a dinner wit tis 2 buddies of mine.. we hv known each other for a good 11yrs! since sec 1~ today's dinner is an advance 'celebration' for jenn.. dine @ Crystal Jade!! it's my current favourite now!! century egg n shredded ck porridge~ yummy~

Qi was asking me tis, 'when u were wit him last time, did he ever bring u to expensive places to dine?' i was thinking hard.. for as far as i remembered.. We usually go hawker to eat cuz the places he brings me to is those cheap n good food else fish & co? except for the last dinner on board that we had..

It's me tat suggest goin to 'expensive' places for meal.. den after dinner, went to metro.. me and jac went crazy but i think she crazier cuz she bring in so much clothes to try!! n i only try 2 piece.. there's one particular top we both love alot!! it's in silk n very sexy~ lol.. almost bare back lor!! lol~

Den we went for desserts!! waffles~ it was yummy lor.. haha.. so our next meetin is next week again~ yeah yeah~ so it's goin to be movie, dinner n dessert~ lol..

After tat, we took alot of shots together~ hahaha.. it's been quite awhile since we took so much pics le.. but the prob is, we hv to take the pics ourself lor!! so some were rather artistic lor.. i quite like it..

i posted all the pics cuz it's very random~

It was Peiyun's Bday ytd.. she msn me today, sharing wit me her joyous celebration.. she told me tat HW hv given her alot of surprises and it all begin wit the dinner at fish n co.. den when HW send her hm, the bunch of friends, including 'him' was in the lift which she had pressed.. n she told me she was so surprise~ upon hearing all tat, i suddenly felt so much envy for her.. i dun know y.. i oso wish for surprises on my b'day.. but none..

I really envy her.. her bf really plan so much for her on her b'day.. for me, i used to tot tat my b'day tis year was the biggest n happiest surprise for me ever.. but it's not.. it's the worst gift for me and definitely not the b'day wish that i hv wished for tis yr.. it all turn out to be a nightmare for me..

I hv hear enff stuff about them from friends.. everytime i hear it, it juz makes me shiver....

He called me on Sunday noon.. should be about the time he woke up.. i was rather surprise cuz the way he tok to me was juz like the way we tok when we were together last time.. but everything seems like bubble...
beautiful but doesn't last..

The End ♥

Sunday, July 27, 2008

♥12:43 AM

there's 2!! one gold one silver~

Okie~ blog again~ went shopping today wit Wee Teck.. i think it's the 1st time i went out wit him despite knowing him for so long.. know him 3 yrs le.. we met at orchard.. 1st, Far East.. a place i didn't went to for a long time~

So, we went for a meal @ long john.. after tat starts the horrible spending for me!! omg!!

went to Tangs to get my MAC mascara.. there's a price diff liao.. last time pig buy for me only ard $17.. nw it's $22!!! but no choice, it's the nicest mascara i've used so far.. den went to PS cuz WT needs to get a watch for his gf.. saw tis watch at Guess, price @ $238!! its very nice and he dun feel the ache lor.. but too bad, the watch got some scratches so we hv to make a reservation at bugis..

Den we went to daiso.. finally, manage to get the lap pouch.. but WT say he buy for me cuz i need to travel ard wit him.. tks tks~ we oso gt Peiyun a bag for her b'day.. pretty nice.. it's actually the bag i wanted to get for myself but not big enff for me.. it's oso a way to change PY's dressing ba.. she shd stop taking those sport bags!!! omg~

Den went to bugis to get his watch n box.. finally manage to get the gift box! Ard 9+, finally finish the deadly shopping trip~

poor WT hv to carry all my stuff.. haha.. tks alot.. cuz really too much things liao.. den went for dinner @ Yoshinoya..

tat ends my sat~

Sms him last nite, i dun know whether was it rite or wrong for me to do tat.. he replied me in the morning.. i guess the sms stress him out again.. haiz.. his reply makes me think over again.. is it actually rite for me to sms him tat?? is he still choosing? or he hv already chosen? i dun wan to sacrifice.. i dun wan to.. but i will do so if it makes him a happier person... think she really needs him more den me and i am nothing comparable to her.. =( i dun know i dun know.. i really dun know.. =(

The End ♥

Friday, July 25, 2008

♥11:10 PM

i saw tis car on sis's hse car park.. shd be a EG.. beautifully mod!! looks so beautiful.. looks very new oso.. =)

eunice gave me tis!!! $12 for a small box of choco.. she dun know how to appreciate so she gave it to me!! she gave me Nayana bag oso~

chocochip n cheese muffin.. ah-giam gotten it for me even though i forgotten to get him his lunch.. hahaha~

Had dinner wit him ytd nite.. 24/07/08.. he came to pick me up from work but i waited for him for quite sometime in the office.. he only reached at around 7.10pm? i waited till the sky turns dark.. the weather was quite bad ytd, rainy.. i love tat kind of weather when i was wit him last time cuz i always yearn to hv him hugging me keeping me warm in those weather..

but not anymore.. i'm all by myself now.. all i've wit me is a cardigan! well, we went to T2 to hv Popeyes as agreed.. think we ordered too much or was i too greedy? i told him i wan eat tis and wan eat tat oso.. lol~ I'm glad he goes along wit my request.. at least he didn't ask me whether i can finish or not although we ordered too much.. he paid for the meal, i wanted to return him money but he told me no need.. so i told him tis, 'k lor, since u late made me wit for u for so long..' lol~

Glad that he remembered tat i dun take soft drink.. =) well, as for the food, i wanted to take pic of it.. but i didn't cuz i fear he would ask me y i take pics or wat.. or maybe i dun wan him to be worried tat i wan to take his pic and post online to show his gf.. so, no pics to share wit ur..

I like the chicken strips, the whipped potato and fries were delicious!!! but that fatty, finish the fries and only left 3 for me? lol.. the 2pc chicken i ordered, i didn't eat it.. poor him hv to finish it.. haha.. but i did try it k!

We oso didn't really tok much.. ask him to get me a pair of inline skate but i dun know will he? We stopped by at yishun dam and he helped me fix up my lappy.. =) he oso let me experience the twin cam in his car.. i was rather scared maybe cuz too long neber experience such stuff le ba.. my heart was pounding so quickly!! i told him tat.. but think he sure thinks tat i act or wat.. but i really didn't.. wasn't feeling tat well ytd, eunice know about it.. she said i look pale in office the whole day after i came back from lunch at kallang..

Took half day 2day.. clearing leave.. drove sis, mum & han han to bugis.. but i'm rather piss off wit the small mirror on the side mirror.. it's blocking all my view!! And i can't see and change lane properly!! had pasta for lunch.. mum bought a bag at bugis st and she told me i could take it if i like.. n tat bag is goin to be mine!! lol~

The End ♥

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

♥1:16 PM

hehe~ here's a pic of me n Han han b4 goin out to PS.. omg.. she juz look so adorable in tis shot.. went out to Ps wit sis n bro-in-law dun know on which weekend.. it was han's 1st trip out.. haha.. well, rather co-operative tat day.. she's a SPG!! lol.. tat's wat sis call her lor..

she was sleeping n sleeping.. haha.. love to pinch her fatty cheek.. so.. who do ur think she looks like? the father or the mum? hee~

As for me.. let me think.. wat hv i've been doin.. erm.. last week, ah-dee (our foreman) told me tat he wan to send me hm.. lol.. i tot he was juz joking cuz he mention tat infront of everyone.. so i juz play along.. but he ended up waiting for me till 6pm when he can knock off at 5.15pm! omg.. lol.. find it rather funny lor.. maybe cuz it was raining cats n dogs at tat time ba.. lol..

In the ride, ah-dee tok to me.. i didn't expect us to tok so much lah.. cuz i hardly tok to him throughout my 4mths here.. den suddenly he ask me lunch got eat or nt.. ask me dun go hungry.. appreciate his concern.. but i asked him to drop me off at mrt station cuz i hv bills to settle.. but the next day, when they ask him where he send me to, he say mrt n say cuz i scare later let my dad see someone send me hm! lame lor~ lol..

Den fri, i asked him to send me hm!! lol.. cuz ah-boon let us off early.. at 5.30pm.. so happy i reach hm at 6.10pm !! Den 7, qi n guang came to pick me up to east coast for roller blading!!! yeah yeah~ but we went to IKEA for a meal before heading down to the park.. reach at 9pm and the rental shop were all close!

Finally manage to find one tat is open! yeah~ 1hr, $10 free socks~ but, hv to be back on time cuz they will be closing soon~ it's been like 10 yrs since i last blade i think.. i dun dare to stand up.. cuz no knee guard or whatever and i juz keep laughing and laughing.. lol..

Finally manage to stood up.. but dun dare to move! lol.. it's so tedious for me to blade! lol.. i really think i drag qi n guang down .. lol.. I'm slow... and slowly picking up the pace~ had 2 fall!! omg! i fell right in the middle of the track!! n i was laughing like a mad woman!! lol.. i dun know y.. i'm like so happy to fall!! lol~ den 3 cyclist cycle passed us n shouted, 'r u okay??' n qi reply then ,' ok ok!! ' hahaha.. so damn funny lor.. finally manage to stood up again n continued..
guang had a huge fall! in which shock me n qi.. he was practically hugging the stone stool! lol.. after tat, went for a drink.. i really enjoyed blading at nitez!!!

Falling during the session gives me some thoughts.. It's like what i'm going throught now.. picking up baby steps.. slowly but surely..

Goin to get a laptop! yeah~ but i'm very confuse as to which one to purchase..
i wan a camera!!
i wan knee guard!!
i wan a mp3!!

End up Eunice tells me tis, 'u go find a sugar daddy lah.. '
come to think of it, quite true leh.. lol.. .. ~

The End ♥

Sunday, July 13, 2008

♥9:58 PM

Ok.. not i dun wanna upload any photos.. think there's prob again!

Things i hv been doin recently.. shopping, hanging out... dun ask me where cuz i can't remember as it all dun seems important to me anymore.. i used to hv very gd memories of where and wat i do.. but now?

Maybe cuz i'm alone now, so everything i do, i dun seems to hv deep impression of it.. i know i went clubbing wit Christina, Raymond & lao lao, had fun.. but sometimes, all tis 'fun' seems very surface and short for me.. (if ur know wat i mean) i still felt 'empty' at nitez.. empty as in, no one to show me tat kind of care and concern for me.. there's no one i can tok to for wat i does everyday..

Went to jalan kayu on 1 july.. celebrated ray's b'day there.. we had a big feast!! lol.. ate alot lor! shared a cab wit ray and so he send me back hm 1st.. jalan kayu seems to be our b'day celebration place..

Been hanging out wit qi n her bf alot recently cuz i'm a lonely soul but i think i seems like a bulb to them.. hope u dun mind.. rather fun wit them.. cuz his bf is funny n hv very high tolorence level! wahaha~ but sometimes seeing them like tat, reminds me of us last time..

Took leave on tues.. 8/7/08.. reason? went to JB wit him and James.. he went in to fix his car and i juz tag along.. anyway, i still gt 1.5 days to clear by tis mth! my trip there, he gotten me Mac breakfast when i board the car.. surprised~ but of cuz not specially for me lah.. jam was around 45min - 1 hr.. he did took care of me well cuz he oso won't wan anything to happened to me i guess..

He treated me to everything in there cuz i didn't change any ringit.. felt very useless of cuz.. wanted to buy a bottle or mineral water or candy oso cannot.. i won't go and ask him to help me pay unless he ask me.. haiz.. somehow felt tat there's a 'distance' between us.. so near yet so far and we felt so much like strangers now..

Anyway, i had wanton mee.. i love eating the noodles there.. very different from sg noodles.. the 'gee' is not tat strong as compared to sg.. but i quite paiseh cuz no money and when the uncle came over and wanted to collect money, all i can do is lay my head low and continued eating till he's back to help me pay for it..

After everything, went to 古早人 to hv dinner, my favourite place.. love the tofu there.. maybe cuz it's oso the 1st place he brought me to at JB when we were together last time.. so that place carries some memories for me.. i'm glad he remembered wat i like to eat.. or maybe, it's juz too easy to remember..

On the way back hm, we both sat in the car, not a single word, dun know y.. maybe like wat he said before, nothing to tok to me.. is it really nothing or is there some barrier?

I'm abit stress over next mth.. i'm not kidding.. everyday i wake up, the problem comes again.. i need money!! i need a PT job.. i need it badly....

The End ♥