Emo little miie

Friday, November 28, 2008

♥11:18 PM

Sis gave it to me!!! from Biotherm.. it happen so tat there's one emgerency mask! lol.. i need it! cuz i'm having some really dry skin recently!! yeah yeah

i totally did not touch my notes at all today, kinda prepared to fail! lol~ for sure!!

Like the 1st pic i posted.. i like it cuz i simply like the background.. dun know when will i be able to walk on New York's street like tat!

今天和 sam 聊了一下.. 她说她可能不能赶在这个月回来.. 真可惜, 还以为可以和她过 countdown~ 聊了聊, 她叫我不要放弃.. 我便跟她说我给自己一个期限.. 我的期限就是到下个星期日.. 我最不希望的就是他会帮我做任何事，我不要任何人的帮忙，我真的不要..

明年的生日, 我不是很想庆祝.. 我觉得一点意义也没有.. 日子也是一天天这样的过，有没有庆祝也没有分别.. 就让明年的生日特别一点吧.. 不庆祝，没蛋糕, 没祝贺.. =)

The End ♥

Thursday, November 27, 2008

♥10:26 PM

I'm gonna be a piece of dead meat tis time round! nothing gets into my damn brain! i'm gonna fail for sure!!! i'm so sad about it.. =( no matter how hard i try to memorise, nothing seems to be in my brain!!! argh.. i give up totally!

I'm glad sam's settled her stuff, will see her on dec.. so happy for her.. =)

Juz came back from jieyi's bbq.. fast rite! i only go there for like an hr plus den i leave liao.. cuz no friend, i'm the only friend she invited! omg~ n oso i rush back cuz i scare 969 very pack cuz gt Sitex fair.. later sure alot of ppl take the bus..

He's working at Sitex today if i'm not wrg.. aiya.. i dun know y i wanna write tis oso.. argh..

The End ♥

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

♥3:02 PM

Had a video conference wit sam last time, it's lasted for a few hours.. connection were rather gd as she's in Philippines, i tot there's gonna be a serious network problem.. but it doesn't seem the case, except for some occasion where there's some network problem, other den tat, it's all fine.. =)

I was rather surprise when she establish the conference wit me.. but i know she's feeling rather upset recently.. to my surprise, when i was chatting wit her, she was crying away and tat makes me cry too! we juz kept on seeing each other pulling tissues, wiping our tears..

She's caught in a very difficult position now and me as a friend could only listen and give my POV to both side.. but the decision would still be between them.. i misses her company.. she's really someone tat makes me realise the importance of friends.. althought i've only been out wit her once(i did see her a couple of time b4) but the kind of bond between me and her is so funny..

We juz happen to click very well.. =)

She was telling me some stuff about Hanlong which really made me cry so badly infront of the cam.. :*(

I know there's alot of differences between me and kim.. ALOT.. And she told me tat he mentioned tis, 'i know cherlin loves me alot.. i broke up wit her not because i don't love her, i still love her.. but i really need some time alone, i dun wan to hold her back..'

My tears juz kept flowing like water tap when i heard tat from Sam.. i really dun know how to say over tis matter.. i do know why he need to be alone.. we've been together for too long.. somehow or rather, i guess he's 'sick' of looking at me.. i did mention to him tis before, 'if one day u are sick of me, i'll give you a 1 yr break.. we will break up.. in tis 1 yr, u can go and hv any amount of gf, flings or flirts u wan.. if u really find someone really gd, i'll let u go.. i will honour my words to u..'

The End ♥

Saturday, November 22, 2008

♥11:08 PM

val & me waiting for train

*free gift.. pink makeup pouch

lovely limited ed "Be A Star" foundation case

bag from Little Match Girl

wat's inside the bag..

wallet
makeup pouch
pencil case
LaSportSac stick it
USB cable

NaRaYa pouch

another bag from Eunice.. in Bronze..

Updates updates.. was busy doin my assignment the past week.. but, it was rejected!! lol.. but luckily, only some minor errors tat needs to be changed.. and i will post it to the lecture's house..

Met up wit dear after her exams on Thursday.. we had dinner at Mong Kok HK Cafe @ Bugis.. my food wasn't tat great.. but dear's hotplate was good n very worth the money! we were there for an hr plus cuz the wait for the dessert was so long!

After dinner, we begin shopping around.. went to Little Match Girl as they were having a sale and it happen so tat we both were 'looking' at the same bag.. it was beautiful~ dear wans to get it.. n she psycho me into getting it too! my goodness.. i bought it too! erm.. getting myself 1 item every mth oso nt too much ba.. lol..

Dear bought the most thing.. from head to toe! lol.. she was in big n small bags! she even bought dog food which actually was the heaviest! at the end of the day, we sat down n hv a drink b4 goin home.. n she took out all the receipts and i was helping her calculating.. she almost fainted when i told her the total amount! lol..

Immediately after reaching hm, i took a quick shower and continue wit my assignment till 3am in the morning and i woke up at 7 the next day for lesson!

Ytd, went back to office to collect the things Eunice got for me from Thailand.. i was in pantry eating the kueh Eunice bought & wei and giam came in and we start toking non-stop! lol.. luckily there wasn't much cars ytd.. if not i will be the one kena scolded for distracting them from work..

Wei gave me a treat during teabreak.. he told me tat he will give me a official treat next time round.. i appreciate it alot even if he never treat me in future.. for i was only colleague wit him for about a few mths nia.. but yet, we were like very gd friends.. to me, everyone in CCF is really gd to me.. =)

ah-Dee send me back.. but in the car, i didn't really wan to tok to him.. i dun know y.. it juz gives me a very funny feeling when there's juz me n him.. n so, i slp on my way back! lol.. very bad lah.. ppl send me hm yet i still like tat.. but, bo bian.. tis is me.. when i feel uncomfortable about situation, i won't hide it!

Regarding wat happened last week, i dun wish to mention about it anymore le.. i know the whole truth liao.. the person whom i tot betrayed me didn't do so.. phew~ it's a relieve to know the truth.. but on the other hand, i know something in which i was rather surprise..

I dun know whether the person is reading tis now or not since i hv actually changed my blog add.. if 'YOU' are able to read it, all i can say it, there is no secrets in the world.. if ur happiness is reading at ppl's blog and digging ur own grave, den go ahead~ pls continue to do so.. it's my honour u are reading my blog.. tks for visiting my blog and making the counter hits a higher no. of visitors i had everytime u come~ =)

The End ♥

Sunday, November 16, 2008

♥4:53 PM

I'm upset..

I'm wrongly accused by someone..

I dun know who the culprit is..

Are ppl whom i used to trust can no longer be trusted anymore?

Looks like i'm rite.. trust no one.. no one.. :*(

The End ♥

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

♥10:12 PM

I AM TOTALLY PISS OFF WIT HER!!!! SHE IS TOTALLY GETTING ON MY NERVES!!!

And i guess ur wanna know who i am toking bout.. she is none other den my classmate CRYSTAL!! i really felt like making her shut up!!! ARGH!!!

Everytime i go to sch, i would need to tell myself this, 'haiz.. gotta entertain her AGAIN!' yes i hv to use the word entertain!! cuz i've never ever need to entertain classmate like tis ever before! if it's not becuz she's young and is my only 'friend' in class, i wouldn't even do all tis shit!!

Everytime i'm in bus in the morning, she would sms me ask me where i am liao. pls, for god sake! we classmate for 3 mths liao leh.. since when did i ever reach class before lesson starts?? i would always be 10mins late.. 1 ridiculous day was one morning she send me 8 SMS while i was on the bus sleeping!

And EVERYDAY during teabreak, she would ALWAYS tell me on her journey here, where n where jam.. den she need to change wat n wat bus to get to sch faster! HELLO MISS!! I AM TOTALLY NOT INTERESTED TO KNOW WAT BUS N WAT TIME U GET TO SCH! CUZ IT'S TOTALLY NONE OF MY BUSINESS!!!!!!

But i tolerated wit tis nonsense all tis while.. n everytime she toks, i can barely hear her.. so i juz smile back and pretend i know WTF she's toking.. den she will go on and on but i totally hv no idea wat she toking about!! we hv SERIOUS communication problem!!

Since she like to tok to me bout her journey so much, i might as well tell her my shits oso! so i told her i was caught in a little bit of jam tis morning.. but the prob is, the accident had been cleared out but yet everyone is moving so damn slowly n tat cuz the huge jam!

And so i say,' jam cleared.. yet so many car moving so slowly..' and she replied me as if she wanted to fight k! she say, 'its cuz the jam was already there so everyone move slowly..' so i say, 'i know! but the prob is there is already nothing on the road so y is everyone so k po as to slow down n wanting to know wat's happening..' and she start her shit again..

I gotten so pissed off i kept quiet!! n i was thinking, 'wtf? u trying to lecture me things on the road? come on! u dun even drive k! all u do is take bus! do u or do u not know excatly how a driver behave?? are u trying to lecture me things on the road to me? wait till u get ur class 3 or 3A! ' Fu*k!!!

When she tok to me bout my another classmate who's having a chalet tis mth, she keep on saying she dun wan to go in a very proud manner.. cuz crystal dun like her! and i'm caught in the middle AGAIN!! cuz my tis friend Sheryl and me still ok de.. we chat quite often on msn..

And i CANNOT let crystal know i chat wit sheryl.. cuz she would show me attitude!! wtf!!!! my life is miserable! totally! And i promised sheryl i would be goin to stay over at her chalet cuz i found tat she's very sincere when she asked me.. although i barely tok to her face to face in sch! but i will get along better wit sheryl den wit crystal!

So i hv to lie to crystal tat i will not be goin for the chalet.. but in actual fact i'm goin.. I WAN TO DIE LAH.. den when crystal found out i chat wit sheryl over project, she tried to 'sound' me out by asking me wat she's doin and how many page she do! wtf!!! Sheryl have got NO INTENTION to win u or anything k! can u dun be so paranoid???

Everytime my 855 reaches, i'm so happy, cause i can finally leave and not put on my fake smile! today i was telling her bout another of my classmate.. bout the fair skin she used to hv and notice tat she went tanning cuz i realise her face used to be very fair but body abit tan like me..

Den she shoot me back by saying tis, 'body tan dun mean face will white lor..' den i say, i am lor.. my face is fair but my hand n leg tan.. den she shoot me back again, 'cuz u got make up mah.. den ur face fair..' n so i shoot her back oso, 'i can barely touch my makeup.. n oso, even if i dun makeup, my face is oso tis face! cuz i only put lotion on my face n not on my hands n leg..'

wah biang!! i really wan to roll eye ball liao lah!

The End ♥

Saturday, November 08, 2008

♥10:34 PM

Happy Birthday to Him..

Happy Birthday to my di Kevin..

You see.. isn't my little niece cute? hee.. can barely see her eyes when she smile.. she has been toking to herself recently.. sometimes we really wonder wat she toking bout cuz she toks to the drawer, the curtain, the celling & the fan.. lol.. it's really amusing when u hear her tok..

Sis gave me the note pad n sticky note from LeSportSac.. yeah yeah~ cool huh.. black n white.. can take to sch to write my rubbish liao..

I called him last nite ard 1am.. he didn't pick up the call, so i went to bed.. around 2am, he called me back but i was in such a sleeping mode tat i dun even remember wat i had tok to him about! one thing i remember is, i wished him Happy Birthday and i asked him if he's still outside at such time.. he told me he juz reach home (actually i oso know lah.. cuz i heard him close the car door) and he ask me slp liao ah.. i say ya den we hang up liao..

I was simply tired ytd! doin nothing yet so tired lor.. i'm really nt determine enff to do project! my goodness.. i will be a dead meat if i dun finish my 2 project by tues! pengz~

I think i ate alot of food today.. whenever i feel stress, i would juz EAT! even though i'm full, i would juz stuff myself silly! it's really my bad habit.. =(
But i hv to eat in order not to feel stressed up! i hate it.. i hate it whenever project or exam is near.. cuz tis bad habit would juz come n wont go! i'm abit lazy to go jogging tis days cuz no songs in my mp3 n i feel so sick listening to the same old song over n over again.. only new songs gives me the motivation to carry on jogging..

The End ♥

Friday, November 07, 2008

♥8:00 PM

Haiz.. i'm so so stuck wit PROJECTS! i'm really lost.. i really dun know wat to do for tis sems assignment.. it's hundred time more difficult den the previous 2 assignment.. the great thing is, both project hv the same deadline~ so GREAT! =(

Had 2 lesson at dhoby gauth tis week.. OMG! i'm totally amazed by the rundown building! the stairs are so long.. the toilet are so old tat when i pee, i'm so afraid tat some dirty thing would juz fly out from no where.. i dun even dare to look at the mirror cuz i dun wanna see anything behind me.. =p

Overall, I DON'T LIKE THE PLACE! i still prefer the campus.. clean & big and gt canteen.. when i was there, the lecturer gave us tea break.. but, there's no where to go to! cannot expect us to go to PS n come back lor..

But, i was early for lesson for the 1st time.. lol.. cuz take train sure wont late or caught up in jam.. lol..

I told him i would be leaving him his b'day present at his doorstep.. but he didn't want me to do tat.. but to me wat i think is, 'if u hv things to do, u juz go ahead.. cuz even if u hv the intention to come and pick up the present from me personally and den drive off, i might as well leave it at ur door.. at least i dun need to see you leaving like that..'

Ok lor.. i took 4 buses ytd to get him his stuff, was sweating like a pig.. =(
And i was wearing black long sleeves somemore.. =( my face was so red!

Gt him a cheesecake.. i juz went round n round the bus trip ytd n it makes me so giddy.. i left everything at his doorstep..

Around 6pm, he called me and ask me why i gt him those thing.. my mistake lah.. he told me 'they' are dying.. =( cuz i no knowledge in choosing it.. but nvm lah.. i told him if all die liao i will get him another one which is stronger and wont die easily.. lol..

Shall stop here.. headache.. giddy.. i'm dying.. soon!

The End ♥

Monday, November 03, 2008

♥4:30 PM

me n wendy

david n me

ah-boy

Wendy invited me to dinner wit her and her cousins for her so call b'day celebration.. i went over to IMM to mit up wit her.. but b4 miting her, i met up wit val since i'm goin over to JE liao den might as well mit her up for a short while..

Val accompany me till ard 7pm.. and juz nice, when her bf came over to fetch her, wendy oso call me up n tells me tat she knock off le.. hee~ so i went up to her shop to look for her.. kelvin is the one picking us up from there to mit up wit the rest of them..

Mit up wit david n ah-boy.. n we make our way to orchard Sakura for dinner.. =)

ok.. total 6 person including me.. n they are mainly the See family.. 1st, david see.. he really looks like xu meng zhe from 5566 .. tats wat i hv been telling him all the while lah.. thought ytd was the 1st time i c him but i still think they look alike.. lol.. david is a damn funny n crappy guy!!! omg.. n he reminds me of ah-guang!! wahahah~ both pattern same lor.. the way they tok oso same!!

Next, ah-boy.. he is oso 24 yrs old.. same as me.. but he look so much younger den me!!! he gt the boyish look.. lol.. he is very funny oso n very scattered brain.. he sat beside me during dinner n he juz keeps on putting food to my plate.. but well, i felt like a vip ytd.. cuz those guys are really nice.. they would does n take everything and all me & wendy need to do is sit n wait..

Next, vincent see.. wendy's elder bro.. he oso quite friendly.. but we didn't really tok much cuz we sat quite far apart..

Took quite alot of pics ytd.. n they make me felt like i'm a superstar.. lol.. cuz i took pics wit every single one of them turn by turn.. lol..

During dinner, i didn't really eat much cuz my tummy wasn't feeling tat well tis few days.. juz 2 mouth of food is enff for me.. the wind in my tummy is killing me!!! it can make my face turn green!!! =(

dDen they tease me lah.. say i no need paiseh eat so little cuz so many guys around.. but i juz reply back them tis, 'halo!! u look at my build lah.. u think i'm the type eat very little meh! my tummy is really feeling very upset now tats y i cannot eat much.. n it's nt the 1st day like tis liao lor..' haha.. n david ask me back, 'period ah?' pengz~ tis is hw straight they tok lor.. but quite fun.. hahahah~ at least no one hide their identity lah..

After dinner, went to a pub for a drink.. but i was putting up a false front.. cuz my tummy really upset, yet i hv to drink n they kept on asking me to sing.. but i rejected.. i cant even stand up straight lor.. where gt the 'qi' to sing??

David is one very very gd singer!!! omg!! his voice can really go competetion!! no joke.. he shd go n join one.. his voice can really mi dao alot of gals!! lol.. but not me.. wahaha~ around 1+am den i reach hm.. but i was already giddy liao.. like dying.. n so when kelvin send me back, he ask me to take a nap n when about to reach den wakes me up cuz he no idea where i stays..

But well, i think i'm giddy cuz not enff food n i drink n my tummy ache oso gives me prob.. it felt like the whole world is spinning! so great rite.. pengz~

The End ♥

Sunday, November 02, 2008

♥4:02 PM

I really really hate 2008.. my luck is really down.. sibei suay.. haiz..

And i will never forget Nov 1 2008!! WTF!! never!!!!

I've drag so many ppl down wit me! ARGH!!!!

And no one blames me for it!!! y???

He was kind enff to mit me up cuz i was feeling so down ytd.. despite his lack of sleep he still do so, i really appreciate it..

We met around 8pm, he picked me up at bishan.. he knew tat i'm feeling very down, he oso kept quiet.. when he spoke to me, he uses a really nice tone which really makes me feel very comforted..

He didn't ask me where i wanna go or wat.. he juz tells me tat it's his bro b'day and his bro wans a PSP.. so we went to sim lim.. but by the time we got there, it was rather late.. around 8.45pm and most of the shops were already closed.. i didn't mention tat eunice bro was working there oso and we might able to get it at a discounted rate..

But ended up, he actually went to the shop tat her bro was working at and his bro remembered me oso.. so, he managed to get the set at a better deal.. at least won't get con of so much money.. haha~

After tat, we went over to his father's hse and pass YT the present.. when i got out the car, yt couldn't reconginse me.. it was only after i walked nearer and nearer to him den did he realise it's me, and call me 'Cherlin jie jie..' haha.. think is cuz of my short hair.. lol..

Didn't really manage to look at blacky cuz it was too dark.. but when i called his name, he barked at me.. haha.. tis cute little boy.. i wonder does he still remember me..

He wans to bring me out to a meal but whenever he ask me wat i wanna eat, i would juz say, 'i dun wan..' den he ask me u not hungry meh? and i said, 'hungry.. i've not eaten the whole day.. but i really no mood to eat..' he tells me cannot like tat and said muz eat something..

Initially he wanted to bring me to hv struddlers as we were at the kampong ck rice there.. but i shake my head.. so after a while, he asked me wanna go to my favourite place, bukit timah.. and i nod.. but i know tat i actually hv got no mood to eat..

When we got there, he placed the order for me.. to my surprise, i was quite shock when he order.. he told the person tis, '1 mee pattaya.. no chili.. no veg.. no chili sauce oso..' my mind was all too blank ytd.. i dun even remember i hv to order my food without veg.. but i will remember w/o chili.. but to me, i'm really glad, as he still remember wat i like.. =) the comforting thing for the nite..

Due to my low mood, i really had no appetite to eat.. when my food came, i juz keep playing wit it.. i think i only took 2 spoonful of noodle and i left it aside.. he kept on asking me to eat and even knock on my head to make me wake up..

He had to finish up my food despite feeling full.. poor him.. After tat, we chat and i dun know how it got started, we tok about his gf.. but i think he actually didn't wan to tell me about her.. but, i think there's something troubling him oso and he had to tell me cuz he knows tat i know wat type of person he is and the things he hate most..

One of the thing he told me was his privacy.. i've never ever invade in his personal stuff as there muz be mutual trust in the things ur partner does, so i never probe into the things he doesn't wan to share.. he tells me tat she like to play one thing call SPOT CHECK.. wahahhahahaha...

I almost burst out in tears hearing tat!! lol.. who ask u lah.. last time gt such a 'good' gf dun wan.. wan to go wit someone else.. lol.. and i told him tis, 'luckily i never do such things last time lor..' his phone call juz keeps coming in and i know one of it is actually kim who called.. i think he struggled for a while before answering it.. he let the phone rang for quite sometime.. maybe he didn't wan to ans it cuz he didn't wan to ans it infront of me?

In their conversation, i heard him saying tis, 'i'm at bukit timah.. wit louis..' ?? since when did i become Louis?? for sure i know he's lying.. so i bravely ask him tis, 'does she knows tat u mit me?'

He keep quiet for a while and said no.. and said tat if she knows, they bound to quarrel again.. so i ask again, "she does hate me alot rite?"
From his expression i know the ans.. and so he told me tis, 'she scare i will be back wit u again..' and i said, 'she cannot afford to lose u..'
He said, 'the things she does is making me feeling very irritated already.. and do u know how many time i hv mention break up wit her?' and tis are not the only reason.. he told me other reasons oso.. and he end his sentence wit, 'now is see how long she can hold on..'

He also told me tis, 'actually louis oso ask me not to mit up wit u oso.. haiz..' and so i say, i guess not juz ur gf hates me.. even louis hates me oso.. =(
But he ended up telling me tis, 'i'm not goin to listen to them.. it's my own life and who i wanna mit.. who says tat one can never mit up wit exs after breaking off?'

But one thing for sure, he can really hide his prob infront of friends.. so wat ppl see is not wat they know.. tis, i experience before liao.. i also finally know something.. i finally know y he would call me up and tells me about his family stuff..

He told me he went to pick meiling up last nite cuz something happened to her and he said tat he cannot tell kim cuz they will quarrel again if she knows.. all he could do was to send her hm and fly off to look for meiling.. he knows for sure if such things ever happen if we were still together, he could jolly well juz tell me cuz he knows i'm not someone tat would quarrel over it and he know for sure i would instead ask him to look for her immediately and i would go back myself..

See lah.. now den he realise how good i am and what he's missing out.. but he never use to treasure it.. haha.. yibin called him up and they were arranging on where to mit.. they mention tat they goin to be at Mandai area and so, he ask me, 'wanna go wit me or u wan me to send u back 1st? it's ur decision..' but i didn't ans him..

We continued our conversation and yibin called again to say tat they hv actually reach the place, but we were still at bukit timah.. lol.. so we paid up immediately and left the place.. so he ask me again, 'u wanna go wit me?' and i say anything..

But upon arriving, i actually feel frighten and i shivered.. juz before i got off the car, i look at him and ask him tis, 'will they gossip if they see me wit u?' he oso turn silence.. he told me tis, 'no ba.. y? you scare they say?' and i said, 'i scare they will tell kim' but he told me nvm.. but luckily not much of them were there, so still fine.. i guess they won't mention such thing to her oso.. cuz the ppl there were only xue min, yi bin & ah-beng..

But i guess they were oso rather shock to see me tagging along.. but, they were also aware tat i'm wit him at bukit timah..

Anyway, after miting him, i do feel better.. he really tried his best in cheering me up.. =)

It's oso been half a year since we broke off le.. haiz.. how time flies

The End ♥