Saturday, November 06, 2004
♥10:38 PM
y.day was a terrible day for me.. was feeling sick~! hate tat~ so sick tat i barely hv the voice to tok.. y.day at sch, something happened.. i was walking to the canteen and a guy call me & said 'Hi' to me.. i dun even know who the hell he was.. but i was in a total lost.. while i was buying food, Hanlong came over and i was asking him was tat his friend but he said no..
went out wit Hanlong to SSDC.. in the train, we didn't tok much, so much like strangers.. so diff from before.. i asked him to tok but he was saying things like, "i'm waiting for u to start a topic.." pengz~ but things got better after we reach JE mrt.. i started toking nonsense so as not to be so awkward.. we later moved to a 2 seater seat and finally, things got better.. he started telling me about his family n himself like wat he used to share wit me.. i was oso changing to be the 'cherlin' he used to know before we were tat 'close' together.. suddenly, he shouted at me, "wat u think u r doin?" i was stepping on his shoe.. and i acted as if i was crying.. lol~ he got panicky! wahaha.. he almost mention about his gf to me when he said "我也是每次和我... (gf)... 朋友这样讲话的嘛..' i oso acted as if nothing.. dun bother..
we were having ice-cream on the way to ssdc.. den he said, '你吃的很开心hor.." and while waiting for the briefing, we were toking and i was asking, "how how" den he say "你 kiss 我，我就跟你讲“ den he held my hand and he was sort of hugging me.. he kissed me on my cheek and i got surprised.. in the briefing rm, i was feeling cold and he was holding my hand making me warm.. i was so afraid tat the lady would ask me, "ur bf ah?" but luckily never..
i was teasing him when he say tat he went geylang wit his friends every week.. was telling him to "take care" of his own body.. lol~ he really BTH the way i suan him.. he was telling me tat he muz bring me there one day to see.. but he oso know tat i gt curfew lah.. dun know tok bout wat thing den he suddenly sounded serious.. he said to me, "我几时骗过你??" really dun know wat to do.. cannot resist it when he hug me.. felt so loved & pampered by him.. but at the same time, i know tat he's not mine.. mixed feeling.. but i really enjoy goin out wit him.. he always make me feels like a little gal infront of him..
today, stayed hm all day n sleep.. super tired n weak.. body like jelly, no energy to move..
