Saturday, December 04, 2004
♥10:28 PM
OMG!!! Why are things turing out tis way? to my surprise, zheng jie actually told me something rather surprising and from tat moment on, did i realise tat i'm being fooled.. WTF! i'm begining to hear 2 diff stories and of cuz, i would rather trust wat zj told me.. for sure i know tat Hanlong is lying! wanted to confront him.. so called him immediately but he never pick up the phone.. i'm glad he didn't ans the call.. if he were to ans, i would juz scream my head off at him! was still crying tat time.. so instead, called up ZJ.. he asked me not to confront Hanlong as it would get his friend into trouble.. but i was thinking, if i dun say it out, i'm asking for trouble myself!
after wat zj told me, i actually cool down and rethink.. he told me there's no point to confront him oso.. something gd was tat, while toking to zj he was making me laugh.. makes me forget wat i'm suppose to do and thanks to him, he really makes my mood better last nite.. =)
12+am, Hanlong called me.. i was thinking whether to call him back or not.. after a long consideration, i called him back.. but i was extremely attitude towards him.. i tried to hide my feeling but i really can't.. think things get so obvious tat he's asking me, 'why are u sounding so attitude tonite? nt ur usual self leh..' god~ hw can i be myself when i'm angry?? he ask me to smile for him and i force myself to.. think he oso felt somethings not rite.. den he ask me if i'm free today anot as he wanted to ask me out.. i can't wait to go out wit him as i felt maybe i can really tok face to face wit him and have things sorted out in a better way!
He was at his friends chalet when i called him last nite.. he was asking me whether wanna go accompany him and i told him straight tat i dun know his friends.. but he asked again, ask me wanna stay overnite or not as the chalet is till monday.. i was thinking maybe tats a gd time for me to hv a tok wit him as well.. but dun think i will go over.. dun wanna show my face in front of his friends..
somehow, he making me real scare to fall in luv wit someone else.. rather hurt by such things.. didn't know tat things will turn out tis way for the 1st time..
saw wat my dear wrote in her OD.. my goodness, i'm really touched by wat she say.. she's extremely protective againt me.. even more protective den anyone else.. well, it's his lose to hv treated me tis way.. i treated him so well yet he did such things to me.. he will regret de.. it's his 损失..
