Tuesday, October 14, 2008
♥1:29 PM
The following entry is a long entry..
Ytd, 13 oct, Monday he called me in the afternoon.. i was rather surprise tat he actually called me.. but, i didn't ans his call cuz i was away and so i called back after quite sometime..
And the conversation goes:
Me: ya?
Him: ya.. ya..
Me: u called me? yes?
Him: miss u so call u lor..
(background, Ahem..(james))
Me: ya! i can hear someone ahem lor..
Him: james lor..
Me: ya.. i know.. y?
Him: u wan Gucci pillow?
Me: huh??? Gucci pillow????? (having a very big question mark on my head cuz i never know they hv such stuff..)
Him: ya.. gucci pillow.. u wan? i get it for you..
Me: huh? gt such thing meh?....
Him: ya.. nvm nvm.. i get it for you k..
Me: huh?? oh.. ok..... when u free go dinner leh..
Him: erm.. maybe tonite ba..
Me: erm.. ok.. confirm liao den let me know again ba..
So we mit up for dinner.. he didn't came to pick me up.. instead, he asked me to go down to bishan and he picked me up from there.. went to Geylang for dinner.. i wanted to hv korean food but he took me to Mongkok Dim Sum instead..
Well, he was oso shock bout the shortness of my hair.. when i ask him is it nice? he juz give me a checky smile and say nice.. kao~ means not nice lor.. =(
sad... i know my hair look terrible!!
In the ride, he suddenly tells me tat he's very angry wit me.. i was shock! so i asked him, "huh?? y? did i did something wrong???" and he juz kept on saying, 'very angry wit u ytd!' i was totally confuse..
Den he told me tat last nite he actually dreamt of me.. i gave out a very loud laugh and i said, 'u will dream of me de meh? i tot only i would dream of u.. lol..' he told me tat he dreamt tat i was wit him at kallang and i suddenly walk away and went out wit someone elses instead.. he juz kept shouting for me but i ignored him.. and he called me the next day and when he say hello hello, his Hp starts ringing.. lol.. tats when he actually gotten up from his dream.. lol~ he told me he's so angry wit me in the dream tat's y he called me.. pengz~
He also told me tat he went to OG for 2 sat nite.. i was totally shock and i ask him if he went racing oso? he told me yes.. i kept quiet for a while and i ask him y did he do it.. he told me James kept on asking him to go and he told me tat he was in a very bad mood tat day.. i continued asking him wat happened.. he juz tell me bad mood.. but well, actually i know 'they' surely had a fight.. but since he dun wanna mention, i won't ask further oso..
We looked for a parking lot for quite sometime and so i told him tat if there's no lot, den go else where for dinner.. but he's determine to look for a lot.. finally manage to find a lot after quite sometime.. phew~
Well, as u all know, geylang is a busy road so, he grab me on my elbow while waiting to cross the road.. so while waiting, i juz joke wit him saying, 'me fit leh!! u c my hand all muscles! wahaha~' den he laugh and shake my hand, '是咩.. y still can shake den huh?' pengz~ k lah.. i got flabby arms! SO WAT? lol~
He ordered the food but actually i dun really like dim sum cuz too much meat makes me very sick.. he juz kept on telling me tat tis place is famous for it's prawn and it juz suddenly strikes me tat 'i think u hv forgotten tat i dun take seafood..'
When the food came, almost 3 item is wit prawn and so when i 'open' up the food, i juz softly said, 'got prawn de ah?' den he say yes.. den i say, 'but i dun eat prawn..' he juz kept asking me to try..
Dun wanna be a wet blanket, i took a small bite on it.. but, i didn't really bite the prawn yet and he suddenly ask me not to eat cuz the prawn isn't cooked.. wahaha~
Think we ordered too much food and since i'm not a dim sum fanatic, i juz take one from every basket to try and he kept feeding me wit RICE! end up, i juz say to him tat the food isn't really tat nice.. maybe to me i find it not fresh ba..
From 9+pm we sat there till 11+pm.. it was for the 1st time we had so much to tok about wit each another and i'm glad he finally look into my eyes when we were chatting.. Cuz when we broke up, he told me tis, 'did u realise tat i dun even dare to look into ur eyes when i tok to you these days?'
When we left the place, i asked him whether could he juz drive in to those back alley cuz i wanna look at those ... he obliged wit me.. =) after a short while, we finish exploring the place and to my surprise, he actually asked me where i wanna go instead of telling me tat he's gonna send me back..
As we both dun know where to go, he juz drove the way he drove me back.. somewhere near his place, he asked me wanna go AMK Mcd for a drink.. i said ok.. but suddenly i say, 'aiya.. we shd hv go mustafa! i wanna look for something..' den he ask me y i didn't say so earlier..
He immediately make a left turn to go to mustafa.. but i told him, "huh? no need lah.. we juz came back from there leh.." but he told me nvm and we went.. we were looking at some car mags cuz we were toking bout a certain car and he kept on insisting tat he wan to show me the pic..
So, we were joking and laughing at each other, it makes me think of the past.. but i think it's rather normal ba.. =)
On our way back, he drove over to his place while i waited for him at the car park.. emo again.. i lifted my head up to look at the unit he's staying at and of cuz, there's alot of flash back memories for me.. too much... when i saw the bear i gave to him for him to place on his meter is being replaced, i felt....... no one will know the kind of feeling i had..
Anyway, he drove back to bring down his laptop for me to watch a clip.. but he didn't charge his laptop and were only left wit 2 mins to watch the clip.. pengz~ of cuz, the laptop went dead on us very soon~ i was asking him why did he paste the HVRacing decal on his laptop..
He was so delighted wit his artwork and kept on saying it looks nice.. he actually offered to give me one of his spare decal and asked me to stick it on my laptop oso.. i do remember the decal, it was taken when we went to JB wit james for tuning a few mths back.. i know the decal is rather precious to him so i didn't really expect him to give it to me.. but of cuz, i didn't take it cuz i know he love the decal too much..
When he made a sharp turn, the bunny on the meter fell and i had to pick it up and place it back nicely.. if you were me, can ur take it? can u? but i had to.. no matter how unwilling i am, i still hv to act as if it's nothing.. it juz feel so terrible in me.. hv to keep telling myself mentally tat, "it's okay, it's okay.."
When he drop me off, i took out a bag of stuff.. bag of stuffs that actually contain all the accessories tat he given to me last time.. including our Promise Ring and my precious diamond bracelet.. it took me so much courage juz to take the stuff out to return it back to him..
It's not an act of childishness.. i really hv my own reason for doin so.. i really do.. and so i juz throw the bag on the back seat and he was so shock and ask me wat's tat..
I told him it's his childhood photo album tat his dad gave to him last yr.. but all the while it was being kept wit me for it's really precious and important.. i open the door immediately, he shouted for me asking me to stop.. i think he got a shock when he open up and saw the stuff inside..
He pushed the stuff back to me and asked me why did i hv to return him the stuff he gave me.. and i juz goes, 'it's not tat i wanna return to u.. it juz tat.... (silence..)'
Once again he ask me, "why do u have to return me the photo? y can't you just keep it wit you? can u juz take the things back? if not i won't even dare to ask u out the next time.. take it back wit u.."
I push it back to him again but he juz say he's goin elsewhere and so i said, "why dun u open the boot? i will put it behind and no one will know or see it.." but he still ask me to take it back and kept on saying next time next time.. but will he take it back next time.....
I know i actually ruin our date wit tat cuz everything suppose to end happily cuz we had a very long & relaxing conversation throughout the nite.. i reach hm ard 2.15am.. i miss the time i spent wit him when we were together last time.. i really miss it..
Since someone out there is more suitable for him and i'm really not good enff for him, i should learn to let him go....
