Sunday, November 02, 2008
♥4:02 PM
I really really hate 2008.. my luck is really down.. sibei suay.. haiz..
And i will never forget Nov 1 2008!! WTF!! never!!!!
I've drag so many ppl down wit me! ARGH!!!!
And no one blames me for it!!! y???
He was kind enff to mit me up cuz i was feeling so down ytd.. despite his lack of sleep he still do so, i really appreciate it..
We met around 8pm, he picked me up at bishan.. he knew tat i'm feeling very down, he oso kept quiet.. when he spoke to me, he uses a really nice tone which really makes me feel very comforted..
He didn't ask me where i wanna go or wat.. he juz tells me tat it's his bro b'day and his bro wans a PSP.. so we went to sim lim.. but by the time we got there, it was rather late.. around 8.45pm and most of the shops were already closed.. i didn't mention tat eunice bro was working there oso and we might able to get it at a discounted rate..
But ended up, he actually went to the shop tat her bro was working at and his bro remembered me oso.. so, he managed to get the set at a better deal.. at least won't get con of so much money.. haha~
After tat, we went over to his father's hse and pass YT the present.. when i got out the car, yt couldn't reconginse me.. it was only after i walked nearer and nearer to him den did he realise it's me, and call me 'Cherlin jie jie..' haha.. think is cuz of my short hair.. lol..
Didn't really manage to look at blacky cuz it was too dark.. but when i called his name, he barked at me.. haha.. tis cute little boy.. i wonder does he still remember me..
He wans to bring me out to a meal but whenever he ask me wat i wanna eat, i would juz say, 'i dun wan..' den he ask me u not hungry meh? and i said, 'hungry.. i've not eaten the whole day.. but i really no mood to eat..' he tells me cannot like tat and said muz eat something..
Initially he wanted to bring me to hv struddlers as we were at the kampong ck rice there.. but i shake my head.. so after a while, he asked me wanna go to my favourite place, bukit timah.. and i nod.. but i know tat i actually hv got no mood to eat..
When we got there, he placed the order for me.. to my surprise, i was quite shock when he order.. he told the person tis, '1 mee pattaya.. no chili.. no veg.. no chili sauce oso..' my mind was all too blank ytd.. i dun even remember i hv to order my food without veg.. but i will remember w/o chili.. but to me, i'm really glad, as he still remember wat i like.. =) the comforting thing for the nite..
Due to my low mood, i really had no appetite to eat.. when my food came, i juz keep playing wit it.. i think i only took 2 spoonful of noodle and i left it aside.. he kept on asking me to eat and even knock on my head to make me wake up..
He had to finish up my food despite feeling full.. poor him.. After tat, we chat and i dun know how it got started, we tok about his gf.. but i think he actually didn't wan to tell me about her.. but, i think there's something troubling him oso and he had to tell me cuz he knows tat i know wat type of person he is and the things he hate most..
One of the thing he told me was his privacy.. i've never ever invade in his personal stuff as there muz be mutual trust in the things ur partner does, so i never probe into the things he doesn't wan to share.. he tells me tat she like to play one thing call SPOT CHECK.. wahahhahahaha...
I almost burst out in tears hearing tat!! lol.. who ask u lah.. last time gt such a 'good' gf dun wan.. wan to go wit someone else.. lol.. and i told him tis, 'luckily i never do such things last time lor..' his phone call juz keeps coming in and i know one of it is actually kim who called.. i think he struggled for a while before answering it.. he let the phone rang for quite sometime.. maybe he didn't wan to ans it cuz he didn't wan to ans it infront of me?
In their conversation, i heard him saying tis, 'i'm at bukit timah.. wit louis..' ?? since when did i become Louis?? for sure i know he's lying.. so i bravely ask him tis, 'does she knows tat u mit me?'
He keep quiet for a while and said no.. and said tat if she knows, they bound to quarrel again.. so i ask again, "she does hate me alot rite?"
From his expression i know the ans.. and so he told me tis, 'she scare i will be back wit u again..' and i said, 'she cannot afford to lose u..'
He said, 'the things she does is making me feeling very irritated already.. and do u know how many time i hv mention break up wit her?' and tis are not the only reason.. he told me other reasons oso.. and he end his sentence wit, 'now is see how long she can hold on..'
He also told me tis, 'actually louis oso ask me not to mit up wit u oso.. haiz..' and so i say, i guess not juz ur gf hates me.. even louis hates me oso.. =(
But he ended up telling me tis, 'i'm not goin to listen to them.. it's my own life and who i wanna mit.. who says tat one can never mit up wit exs after breaking off?'
But one thing for sure, he can really hide his prob infront of friends.. so wat ppl see is not wat they know.. tis, i experience before liao.. i also finally know something.. i finally know y he would call me up and tells me about his family stuff..
He told me he went to pick meiling up last nite cuz something happened to her and he said tat he cannot tell kim cuz they will quarrel again if she knows.. all he could do was to send her hm and fly off to look for meiling.. he knows for sure if such things ever happen if we were still together, he could jolly well juz tell me cuz he knows i'm not someone tat would quarrel over it and he know for sure i would instead ask him to look for her immediately and i would go back myself..
See lah.. now den he realise how good i am and what he's missing out.. but he never use to treasure it.. haha.. yibin called him up and they were arranging on where to mit.. they mention tat they goin to be at Mandai area and so, he ask me, 'wanna go wit me or u wan me to send u back 1st? it's ur decision..' but i didn't ans him..
We continued our conversation and yibin called again to say tat they hv actually reach the place, but we were still at bukit timah.. lol.. so we paid up immediately and left the place.. so he ask me again, 'u wanna go wit me?' and i say anything..
But upon arriving, i actually feel frighten and i shivered.. juz before i got off the car, i look at him and ask him tis, 'will they gossip if they see me wit u?' he oso turn silence.. he told me tis, 'no ba.. y? you scare they say?' and i said, 'i scare they will tell kim' but he told me nvm.. but luckily not much of them were there, so still fine.. i guess they won't mention such thing to her oso.. cuz the ppl there were only xue min, yi bin & ah-beng..
But i guess they were oso rather shock to see me tagging along.. but, they were also aware tat i'm wit him at bukit timah..
Anyway, after miting him, i do feel better.. he really tried his best in cheering me up.. =)
It's oso been half a year since we broke off le.. haiz.. how time flies
